坏人

前天看见有一个人扶一个盲人过马路，我觉得很窝心。他让我觉得这世界上不乏好人，他还是一个异族同胞。虽然我对异族同胞没有偏见，但因为我家人曾被异族同胞伤害，所以妈妈还是很讨厌 “那种族” 。他也让我觉得，其实 “他们” 并不是全都是坏人。

但今天，看到有一个朋友却被 “异族” 欺压，真的很令人气愤。话说，我朋友在卖二手衣。“她” 选了几件。我朋友开出一个价钱，“她” 却嫌贵。而我朋友开的价钱，我个人认为其实是很便宜的。两件上衣加两件裙，又是蛮新的，才卖RM40。我朋友就说RM30，“她” 还嫌贵。然后 “她” 就不要其中一件裙。朋友就开价RM15，两件上衣加一件裙，RM15已经很便宜咯！平均一件才五块。“她” 竟然只给十块！结果，所有人看见了，都起哄说别欺负我朋友。“她” 还可以理直气壮地认为买东西就应该减价。

我真的觉得 “她” 太过份了！事后，我跟朋友说，其实有一件我也蛮中意的。只是我知道我朋友应该会卖很便宜给我。为了让朋友赚多点，我才没跟 “她” 争。怎知 “她” 却那样来欺压我朋友。早知如此，我应该把那件衣服买回来，那样我朋友可以赚更多，因为至少我不会那样不知廉耻。不过 “她” 平时已经很嚣张了，我要抢，也抢不过 “她” 吧！

越想就越生气，实在太太太过份了！你们说是吗？

A&E Posting

Currently I am in A & E posting now. I have been looking forward to this posting since semester 8. I always think that A & E doctors look smarter as they are really handling emergency cases. (Haha… I think got a lot of influences from drama too.)

Our group is posted to on-call at night. I skipped my on-call on 1st day (I was lazy). Came on-call on Tuesday around 7pm. There was not much patients yet and we gotta do a study on triage. This study need to be done as the head of department of HTJ asked us to. It’s a study to determine the number of cases which are mistriaged. Haih… we, the student, are just been used to do a study for her.

There was no admission to the critical zone but there were a few cases in semi-critical zone. I got to perform an ECG and IM injection on patients but I haven’t got the chance to set IV line as everyone is fighting to do procedures. Some of the staff nurses and MAs are really kind to teach us doing procedure. I have set IV line on obstetric patients before, but not on normal patients. It is easier to set IV line on obstetric patients as their veins are dilated. I succeeded every time when on obstetric patients but haven’t tried on normal patients. Not many cases seen on Tuesday but we got a lot of chance to do procedure.

On Wednesday, I went around 9pm. It was a boring day, as there were lesser cases seen than on Tuesday. Did ECG again but still haven’t got the chance to set drip. There was 1 case of status epilepticus. Left around 12am.

Thursday, a very busy day. We reached around 9pm too. There were a few cases in red zone (critical zone). A 17 year-old man had an MVA, involving motorbike vs motorbike. His condition was quite serious. And finally we got the chance to help out the doctors. We help to bag the patient. The patient stopped breathing and has no more pulse. It was really acute. We get to helped out to resuscitate the patient. This is the 1st time I am doing CPR on a real patient. I actually did wrongly and the doctor stopped me. All of us took turn to do CPR and after 15 minutes, we failed to resuscitate the patient. It was really sad when we need to stop resuscitating and the patient’s family was crying out there. After that, we also helped the staff nurse to clean up the patient. This was a memorable experience and I think I never forget it. Although I failed at my 1st time, I really hope that in the future, I get to save patient whenever I need to do a CPR.

Actually during the 1st two days of the posting, I was quite disappointed as the doctors in A & E look quite slack. I can’t really feel the tense atmosphere of A & E. But after the incident, I really can see that the doctors are doing things. It is very acute when there is an emergency case. At least there is no ignorance… I am really interested in emergency medicine, maybe I’ll take up emergency medicine as my specialty.

爱情果

第一次吃爱情果。
之前完全没吃过、也没看过爱情果。
味道如何？
有点酸酸的、又有点涩涩的、也有点甜甜的。
吃完之后，又有点回甘的感觉。
很奇妙的一种感觉。
哈哈，难道这就是所谓的爱情的感觉吗？
所以这种水果才叫爱情果？
说实在的，并没有很喜欢它的味道，或许还不习惯吧！
嗯，或许潜意识中，我也没准备迎接爱情的来临吧！
哈，还是想太多了吧？
不知大家有没有吃过爱情果？吃了之后，又有什么感觉呢？

No more Pizza Hut!!

This is not the first time. I always have bad experience with Pizza Hut's service. Maybe next time I should have boycott them. No offend to any Pizza Hut's lover, I am just telling my own feeling about them.

My first bad experience was in Pizza Hut in Sri Petaling. We ordered our food but it took more than an hour to serve our food. Those who came later than us already had their food served but not us. We complaint and threatened to see their manager. As a compensation, they gave us just a bowl of salad. We waited until we don't feel like eating anymore.

Another time was in Jusco Pizza Hut in Seremban 2. We went in and wanna ordered our food, but all our orders were not available. Fine, so we left without having our meal there. That wasn't that bad, still.

Recently again, in Seremban Parade's Pizza Hut, it was time for 'buka puasa', so it was quite crowded. We wanted to order our food, a few times, we tried to call the waiter, but they just signaled us to wait. We was hungry, and of course, with an empty stomach, we got angry easily. One of the waitress asked us to wait as they were preparing for 'buka puasa'. We waited for half an hour, and finally we gave up and we left Pizza Hut and went to McDonald. I don't mind waiting but with an empty stomach, and looking at those Malays were served except us, I was so angry. After that, in McDonald, we kept talking bad about Pizza Hut... Haha..

Finally, I had one meal in Pizza Hut after all the bad experiences, still it could not change my bad impression on Pizza Hut. It took ages for them to serve the cheese powder. I still think that it has the worst fastfood service in Malaysia... Friends...no more Pizza Hut if going out with me, k?

Long-waited Post

Sorry for the long-waited post. It's been such a long time since my last post... Again, same excuses... no internet connection, no time, and never-ending exams...haha. Finally I finished Semester 7, and I am one step nearer to become a doctor. Actually I am kinda afraid of thinking about that. Why? I think I enjoy study life more than working, I always think that working life is tougher... Nevermind, "既来之，则安之", before that I also thought that I don't like clinical school life, but I've already gone through 1 year of clinical school.

I've finished Sem 7 exam and I passed. Don't know about the grade yet. AAD said they will send the grades to our parents. Not sure if they are reliable, because they never even send the posting results to my parents. I really hope that I could get good grades for my SAQ and OSPE, of course for OSCE too, if possible, coz I dun think I did well enough for my OSCE. Anyway, I passed and I am gonna be in Sem 8 soon, a honeymoon semester, I suppose, but I don't wanna waste this half year. I was so regret as I've wasted my Sem 6 and Sem 7. I need to be more hardworking!!

After the exam, I went to Malacca with Jin-Yu and Baxter. An unplanned trip actually, to meet Yi Ning who went to Malacca with her mom. Tasted Malacca local food such as chicken rice ball and 'satay celu'. Actually this was my first time eating chicken rice ball but it wasn't as delicious as what I expected. I prefer chicken rice still..haha. 'Satay celup' too, was the first time I trying this, for those who doesn't know, just for information, it's actually something like steamboat but with the soup changed to satay sauce. Very nice!! Highly recommended for those who never try before. We kept eating throughout the whole trip... I think I've gained weight after that trip... Luckily we also did a lot of walking too... to burn some calories gained!!


Satay Celup Yummy Yummy!!



This photo was taken by me.... Nice leh? =P



Malacca Stadhuys



Kota A Famosa




Heberdeen Street Heritage House
One of the most memorable experiences during the whole trip to Malacca. We went to this heritage house because it was free entrance. There's this Mr. Colin explaining the Dutch culture and their buildings to us. At least now I know why all the Dutch houses are narrow but long. Wanna make a guess? Those pictures which were taken in the heritage house are not for published, so I just posted this pic, showing the Dutch toilet... haha... (Oh ya, not sure if I get the street name right?)


And 2 days after I came back from Malacca, I went to Malacca again with my parents. This trip was planned earlier before my exam. So now I am quite familiar with Malacca...haha...call me if you need a tour guide in Malacca. Remember to pay me also...haha... Not much of walking if compare to the trip earlier coz my father drove. However my arm got sun burnt and I could still see the marks on my arms and legs now.



Hang Li Po's Well in Bukit Cina


Trishaws (RM40 per hour!!)


I was watching dramas and movies during these holidays. Never get to study at all. Finally I finished 'The Brink of Law' (突圍行動). I was watching it in Seremban as my owner has the dvds but never manage to finish it before she returned the dvds. I wanna watch this because it was acted by Steven Ma and Bernice... I really like both of them. They have another new drama '舞动全城' showing in Astro on demand soon but I won't have the chance to watch. Next target --> 舞动全城!!!




P/S: Has taken more photos than these, but I can't upload all because it took time to upload photos.. It's so late now, and I wanna sleep..ZZzzz...
p/s: Happy Merdeka Day!!!

Aura

I got a strong aura that I am going to fall sick soon, feel strange since this morning. I hope it's not dengue again because my room got a lot of aedes and I was bitten by them... saw 1 petechiae on my forearm.

By the way, for my recent updates, I've just finished my Paediatrics Clinical Exam. Got a case of pneumonia with Down's Syndrome and underlying ventricular septal defect in failure. I thought it was quite a complicated case, but I've seen her few times before the exam, so I think overall performance should be ok la... The examiner did not comment on my performance, hope can get a good result.

My next posting is Obstetric. Wuwuwu... I don't wanna change posting, I like paeds!!! Babies are cute... guchi guchi...hehe...

An Exhausting Weekend

A different weekend from a usual weekend as Jia Ki came to my house and stayed over. She had to attend a convocation of her friend in KL and needed a place to stay overnight. And I actually went out everyday during that weekend compared to usual weekend, I only stay at home watching TV.

On Friday, after our CP and submitted our case summaries, we went back KL with Iona. On the way back to KL, Jia Ki remembered that she left her shoes in Seremban and she had only a pair of slippers which she was wearing now. She called Yu Ying, our junior, who was going back to KL for his IMU convocation, to collect her shoes in her house. Unfortunately, the gate outside was locked and Yu Ying couldn’t enter the house. Jia Ki asked him to climb the gate, Yu Ying tried but he failed. Then he messaged us that Jia Ki’s neighbours and neighbour classmates were looking at him. Haha… I wonder how funny Yu Ying looked during that time. If I were him, I would dig one hole and bury myself in. So embarrassing...

Since Jia Ki had no shoes to attend the convocation on Saturday, we had to shop for her shoes. We asked Andy, our senior, to come along to Sunway Pyramid. This was the first time we went shopping with Andy. Jia Ki managed to get her shoes and a new battery for her handphone. Her handphone always died off and it was quite irritating sometimes when I couldn’t manage to get her. I knew Andy since Sem 6 through Jia-Ki but we usually did not chat a lot. But I think after this shopping event, relationship of three of us has improved a lot... We can chat nonsense non stop and it was very interesting looking both of them arguing and sometimes I would involve myself in too...

On Saturday, I fetched Jia Ki to the LRT station. Haha… Not many of my friends actually sat in the car I drove. It was countable using one hand only, I think, excluding my family, Yi Ning, Baxter, Racine and Jia Ki… So be proud of it, haha…I managed to do part of my research in the afternoon as in the morning, I was busying checking mails and chatting online. Haha…

On Saturday night, Andy, the knowledgeable person (he claimed himself that), brought us to his martial art centre. I didn’t know that he knew Taekwondo only after I saw his testimonial in friendster. He is one of the coaches. Too bad that he did not demonstrate his ‘skills’ to us. Andy, so disappointing!! By the way, I really felt like introducing him to my sister since I think he is quite a nice guy…lol…

On Sunday morning, we had another date with Jia Ki’s ‘lalat’. I was so tired that felt like missing in action. We did attend the date finally. Damien, the ‘lalat’ came to fetch us and we went One Utama because Andy said there was a dog show. However the dog show ended before we reached. This was the first time I attend this kind of date. Actually Damien knew Jia Ki through friendster and he asked Jia Ki to come out when he knew that Jia Ki was going to KL. Jia Ki asked me along and said he would treat us free lunch. I felt quite weird initially as both of them looked so close even though that was the first time they met each other. Initially I thought it would be like we had nothing much to chat but actually we chatted quite happily. When he was explaining what his job does, Jia Ki and I were so blurred that we pretended to understand what he said. I think I really lost touch with the world and my life was all medical stuff. We went to ‘Chillis’ for lunch and the food was quite expensive there. Luckily someone was treating. After that, I was so exhausted but had to packed and go back to Seremban.

Happy or Sad?

Results are out today. I dunno if I wanna be happy or be sad now. I got my first A in clinical school, but also got my 1st failure... Should I be happy or should I be sad?? Why?? I didn't expect to fail as well as I didn't expect to get A. I knew I did badly for the Ortho MCQ but I really didn't expect to fail. I thought at least I could barely pass.. For the clinical, although the lecturer said he wanna give me an A, he only give me 72 (which is a B+), so I didn't expect the A as well...

Too big contrast.. I still couldn't believe it...

Guilty

Today my mum was asking me how my studies going on in clinical school. I was so surprised to hear that she did not receive any of my results from the uni. I am not used to tell my mum about my results since the uni would send my results home since phase 1. I thought they gonna get my results as usual in phase 2.

So I told her, "OK lo, no more A... All B and C..."

Mum: "Why no more A?"

Me: "Coz it's getting difficult in clinical school.."

Mum: "Then others le? No1 get A?"

Me: "Got, those very smart 1..."

Mum: " I thought you are the smart 1 in the class... you were in dean's list last time."

(Oh Gosh, this is the same thing that one of my friend said in MSN, when I was complaining the tough life in clinical school...)

Me: "I don't have time to study, have to do research and reports...." Started to give all the excuses... in fact, I don't really have mood to study even exam is around the corner..

Then she started to tell me, must study hard, as our financial status could not afford me if I have to repeat.. Everytime when she said about the 'thing', I felt more guilty as I've not been studying hard and spending a lot of money...

I am so guilty now... but all the reports and research stuff took all my time... When could I just study without worrying all those reports and research? I need time to study..... I don't wanna repeat!!

Self Injury

Recently I was doing a research on self-injury. I gotta look through the self-injury forum, read post by post, page by page, to see what they talked about in the forum, to see the member prevalence... And this is so frustrating... I couldn't imagine when I can finish this research, it looked so easy but when I started, everything is a mess, I need to do it over and over again due to some miscommunication among our research group member..

The posts are all almost the same thing, "I've been cutting myself", "I'm so triggered", "I couldn't control the urge", mainly all the members came to the forum when they were so triggered to cut themself to get some support from the other members.

Some of them share their stories, ya....I couldn't imagine it was actually happened in real life. They were too tragedic and dramatic. It's just something beyond my world.

Some of them came to give moral support for those who are triggered. "Stay strong!", "take care", "PM me when you need someone to talk". Most of them self-cut and give support at the same time. When someone is triggered, they try to distract him/her from the urge by posting or ask him/her to make him/herself occupied.

And some of them express their feeling and most of the posts are fulled of "f***" words, which I didn't feel comfortable earlier, and now I kinda get used to it, but still I hate the word. Never ever say the word in front of me k?

I kinda sympathized them as they are suffering from this self cut habit. Some of them self cut because they have some mental disorders, but some of them just cut for nothing... So I think I am the lucky one as I do not suffer as they do, or maybe I've much higher tolerance than them... I've never thought of self cut when I have low mood...

Actually all these things must be kept private and confidential but I did not disclose any of their personal details... so I think it would be fine. But if they know that we are doing a research on them, I wonder how they think.

又是奇怪的梦？

昨晚又做了一个怪梦。梦见梁咏琪暴毙在厕所里，死相极恐怖！我和几位朋友刚好在现场。醒来时，还觉得有些怕怕。还想着，以后还听不听她的歌好。哈哈！再想，这，会不会是一个先兆？

其实对她并没有特别好感或讨厌，会做这样的一个梦，自己都觉得很奇怪。我并没有特别想贬低或诅咒梁小姐的意思，此梦纯属虚构，如有雷同，纯属巧合！

考试前夕，我也做了一个怪梦。不过这梦可是＇梦出有因＇。当时我在读着ORTHO的课本，A朋友SMS我，说她心情很低落。那晚，我就做了一个那样的梦。梦见B朋友在我考试前，打电话给我，说她心情很低落。所以，我决定写一封信鼓励她。过后，我得知她入院了，得了ACUTE CALCIFYING TENDINITIS。我还到SEREMBAN医院一楼一楼地找她。醒来后，我自己都觉得超级白痴的梦。

听说，常常记得自己做过的梦，就是代表睡不熟。或许，我该去找解梦的书来读读。

HUGZZZ....

I need some hugs from you guys.... As a support, an encouragement, or a comfort!!! Just click here or give ^by@n^ a*HUG* at the left column!!!! Thanks a lot!!!

"其实，你们觉得我是个怎样的人呢?"

瑾瑜的一个问题，让我若有所思。我也常常想，在别人眼中，我是个怎样的人？常常会很在意别人的想法，而失去自我。

因为有时侯我会很讨厌一个人，而没让他／她知道，所以有时侯在想，会不会也有人其实很讨厌我，而没让我知道。

如果有人问我这个问题，我会为了不伤他／她的自尊心，都会说好话（除非是很好的朋友，可以接受批评，要不然就是有装着讲笑地说他／她的缺点）。所以我相信问别人这个问题，也不会得到完全真心的回答（而且如果他／她说真话，我会觉得这个人怎么那么直，不会顾虑别人的感受。哈哈，矛盾吧！）。

觉得BAX说得很对（第一次那么赞同他的话！）！＂自己是怎样只有自己知道，不是吗？＂只要觉得对的，就继续下去，要靠着别人的话活下去，是很痛苦的。做回自己，才是最有特色的！

Recent updates

Dunno what to write, since my recent life was just busying with studies, research, and cfcs... all academic stuff (I hate research!! Any1 free to help me with my research?)

Recent Updates:Now I am in Orthopaedic posting. Initially was quite fun and relaxing, but after Prof Harwant came back from his leave, my nightmare started. Only I realized that I've been so slacking for 2 weeks in Ortho. He makes me feel stupid and depress. Haih.... Now I am totally amotivated!! No motivation to go ward... especially I heard some1 in my group skipped ward and case presentation, everyday study at home... then when lecturers asked question, he knows how to answer and the lecturers praised him!! So unfair!! If I dun go ward and just study at home everyday, I also can answer all the question la... I totally got no time to study at all!!!! Dun wanna talk about it anymore...

Feeling abit depressed, couldn't finish my research and my Ortho books... haven't started reading on Psychiatry...I think I gonna flunk my MCQ!!! Hope during the 1 week hols can finish my research la...

Despite being so busy, I managed to watch some korean dramas too. Now I am watching "Mo Nv Yoo Hee", I think it's quite nice, and I think munny will like to watch too...haha... coz there's some part about cooking.. French dishes and some korean traditional dishes....always make my saliva drooling when watching it....Others drama I've watched, like Goong S, which I think seriously not worth to watch...haha... I managed to finish watching it, but now if u asked me about the ending, I forgot everything, just kept fast forwarding while watching. Just watch for the sake of watching..haha... Quite fed up of watching korean drama, but that's the only thing my sister downloaded... sigh...

The recent chinese drama I watched was "Zhuan Jiao Yu Dao Ai" acted by Da S and Luo Zhi Xiang, I finished 39 episodes in 3 nights... Simple and funny... No need to think so much while watching. I noticed that recently I liked to watch idiot movies, the funniest the better... Having so much stress in real life, must find something to balance it... And really envy Ning and Jinyu watched so many dramas and animes.... I think I won't have any chance to do so....

p/s: I changed a new specs too....haha...

天蝎座 （２００７年３月１０日）

天蝎座 （２００７年３月１０日）

＂注意力较散漫，应预防被窃或遗失东西。好好地保管贵重东西吧。＂

星期六，在学校的我，翻开报纸，看到这句话，觉得不可思议。因为我刚刚发现到遗失了Jia Ki的pendrive，所以才来学校寻找。为什么那么准？真的是好的不灵。坏的灵。怎么办？里面有很多很重要的资料。糟糕糟糕！！怎么最近常遗失东西？

希望可以找回！拜托佛陀、菩萨保佑！！！

Semester 7 -- Psychiatry Posting

I am doing nothing in the library, waiting for the variety night to begin soon at 7.30pm. Now I am a Sem 7 senior. Seeing all those juniors, I only knew some of my batch mates who repeated their semester. All the juniors looked familiar as I've seen them in Bukit Jalil before, but now I couldn't recognise one is junior or senior. My memory is getting deteriorate.

I started my Sem 7 with Psychiatry posting, which is a very good posting to start with. It is quite relaxing, not as hectic as O&G (Obstetric & Gynaecology). Psychiatry is actually one of my list of specialising, so I must study hard, cannot be as relax as in Sem 6 anymore.

The 1st day of our posting, we had a briefing from Dr. Xavier. As usual, he likes to ask us to introduce ourselves which I hate most. I am not good in public speaking and I'll have thought block. After the briefing, he took us to the psychiatry ward which is located behind the KKS (Klinik Kesihatan Seremban). The male ward was named Wad Zamrud and the female ward was named Wad Mutiara. The psychiatry patients are very 'friendly', they looked so normal from appearance, just like other patients in medical ward and surgical ward. They looked at us as if we are animals behind the gate. They are so frinedly that they come and approach you and say hi to you. It might look scary, but I am actually not afraid of them. Some of my batchmates are so scared of them and they don't like the posting. We did not talk to them as Dr. Xavier just wanna brief us around the clinic.

The second day, I am posted in the female ward. The female ward is an open area, unlike the male ward, the patients are locked up in the cell. So we get to sit beside all the patients, talk to them, watch TV with them. They will come to you whenever they see you. When you switch your place, they will follow you. Then they will tell you their stories without you asking them.

The 1st patient who I clerked in detail had paranoid schizophrenia. She kept telling me that she had bone cancer, asked me to tell the Chinese doctor to give her 'antibiotic' to treat the bone cancer. Then she said every1 in the world is bad, every1 wanna rape her, her brother and sister-in-law wanna kill her and take her shophouse. she said she doesn't like M'sia, wanna move to Taiwan as there is more Chinese there. At first I really thought what she said was true until I looked at her case file. She was admitted due to aggressive behaviour at home, used a parang, trying to kill her brother and nephew. Couldn't imagine she was so violent. She kept talking about the bone cancer whenever she sees me, ask me for a favour to tell the doctor to give her 'antibiotic'. I promised her, told her that I would tell the doctor if I see him.

The next day, she came to me when I just entered the ward, asked me if I ask the doctor. Then I kept thinking excuses, tell her that I didn't see the doctor la, the doctor is not in-charge of the ward la and bla bla bla.... Then she told me the whole story again. She underwent ECT (Electroconvulsive therapy) in the morning and forgot things. Now she was telling me that she wanna go Spain, then I asked, wat about Taiwan. And she just couldn't remember that she said that before. The next few days, she kept telling the same story over and over again until I fed up. However I can see the improvement after the ECT. 1st day, she thought she got one course of medication and after eating the medication for 1 month, she will recover. Then she said she wanna go Nilai Cancer Institute and UH to treat her cancer. 2nd day, she forgot about the medication and the Chinese doctor but still thinking about where to treat her cancer. 3rd day, still talking about bone cancer, still thinking where to treat that. And today, she only think that she got bone cancer but forgot about Nilai Cancer Institute. Hopefully the next week I see her, she can forget about the bone cancer thingy. Haha....

P/S: A lesson I learned from the posting: Don't trust your patient totally, always think that they have delusion and hallucinations.

Boring...

Since I got nothing better to do, I changed the blog music. It's actually a song from Goong S, but I decided to put the pure music of it, instead of the song. The original song was sung by Howl, the singer who sang the Goong's theme song too. I like his voice very much, but I think it's better to put music instead of song for the blog. That's why I changed to this music instead of keeping the "Beautiful Love" song. So, how's this song? Nice?

I also editted my pic, do you notice? I actually make it smaller so that I look thinner! Haha...

Actually I gotta revise my studies, but everyday I keep online, watching TV.... Sigh... I cannot be so lazy!!! At least I've tried to study the fluid replacement thingy. Haha...

Ok for now... gotta go to bath...

P/S: To Annegel, a good news for u!!! I can go out with you tomorrow... Happy??

{Movie} 生日快乐

之前就很想看这部电影。很喜欢这类型的电影，虽然知道不会有特别的惊喜，但是我还是喜欢刘若英演戏。

整部电影真的没什么惊喜，平平淡淡，连结局也是我意料之内。不过我还是觉得刘若英是一个＂戏精＂，演戏也太厉害了吧，完全把古天乐给比下去了。古天乐这帅哥，只有做花瓶的份。不过不得不承认，他演戏有进步啦！还有其他的配角，也有我满喜欢的演员，好像周俊伟，可是他变胖了，哈哈！以前他刚出道时，还是一个很babyface的男孩。

说回电影情节，觉得小米和小南就一直错过彼此，明明是喜欢对方的，却总拿＂好朋友＂来当藉口。虽然我相信男女之间，友情是存在的，可是他俩亲密的程度，就连瞎子也看得出来，他在等着她，她也在等着他。

如果我是小米，当我知道真相后，会很生气小南。生气他没让我陪着他，生气他没告诉我，生气他骗我。我宁愿陪着他死，也不愿被人蒙在鼓里，懵懵懂懂地过日子，因为纸始终是包不住火的。我觉得两人相爱应该坦诚相待，互相信任。

或许是我想太多了吧！这样的结局，小米应该是最幸福的。不过还是觉得刘若英和古天乐不衬，好像姐弟恋，因为刘若英样子实在太。。。嗯。。。不是老。。。是太有经历的感觉。

送给大家一些剧照：

悼念婆婆记

我以为我不会哭的。其实跟婆婆不是很亲，从小不是和她住，再加上福建话不是很灵光，也不能和她聊天。所以一直认为如果婆婆去世时，应该只会难过，可是不会哭的。但是我错了！

婆婆去世前一天，我还有到医院去看她。她已经不认得我们了，只认得姑姑和几个伯伯。看着她身上插着很多管，真是惨不忍睹。那时她的心跳是１６０多，血压也只有８０／５０mmHg。医生说她只是靠着药物生存，如果婆婆要回家，就必须拔掉那些管子，也就是说拔掉她的生命。婆婆那时已不能说话，但却很坚持要回家。那时我已经觉得婆婆应该撑不了多久（我很坏吧？）。当天晚上，不能说话的婆婆，竟然大吵大闹，吵着要回家。结果第二天早上，姑姑和爸爸就把她送回家了。

婆婆去世当天，我还在芙蓉上课。那时手机一直在震，上着课，又不能接电话。可是我也已经猜到是什么一回事了，只是没想到那么快。哥哥的一个简讯，说婆婆去世了，要我快些回家，更让我无法专心听书，只是想着快点放学。一上完课，我就跟Mr. Lionel说要请假，那时我已经是眼眶都是泪，他还一直问东问西的。然后每个人又一直问，结果我就当场哭了，真丢脸。我什么也没想，就一直冲回PJ。

回到家乡，一进门口，婆婆的遗体就放在客厅中央。看着婆婆，只觉得她好像在沉睡，很安祥。婆婆今年９３岁，照华人风俗，华人加一岁，然后自己又加一岁，天地加一岁，这边加加，那边加加，就加到１００岁了。很神奇，无论数学多精，我怎么也不会算。所以婆婆的葬礼算是＂笑丧＂。

终于，这一次算是全家最完整的聚会。身在外地的堂哥堂姐们，都一一回来了。整个葬礼，其实并没有太伤心的气氛，除了姑姑每次靠近婆婆的遗体时，会哭之外。因为是笑丧，全家人都穿着红彤彤的衣服，我本人是觉得太夸张了点。

其实跟婆婆不是很亲，真的不知道要跟她说些什么。最近因为她生病的关系，有时会过来我们家住，福建话不灵光的我，只能听她说话，然后＂嗯嗯＂地回应她。无论如何，还是要说一句：

＂婆婆，安息吧！＂

{Song Sharing Time} Beautiful Love (蔡健雅)

很喜欢这首歌。留意歌词，每一句我都很喜欢，再加上旋律朗朗上口。如果有幸，可以找到一个美丽的爱情，真的是死而无憾！

Beautiful Love (蔡健雅)
作詞：葛大為　作曲：黃漢青　編曲：Adam Lee

看住時間　別讓它再流浪
從前我　太適應悲傷
你的出現在無意中　卻深深撼動我
一起走著　沒說什麼　心是滿足的

這個世界　隨時都要崩塌
我沒有　其他的願望
假如明天將消失了　趁現在我愛著
只想記得　被你抱著　溫熱的感受

Love's beautiful so beautiful
我失去過　更珍惜擁有
多慶幸我是我　被你疼愛的我
緊緊牽住的手　不要放手　永遠守護我

Love's beautiful so beautiful
我很快樂　你會了解我
我不會再哭泣　是因為我相信
我們勇敢的愛著　每秒鐘　
都能證明　一生的美麗

Love's beautiful so beautiful~

New Look!!

Change my blog's background! Just want to have a new look before Chinese New Year. I just pick the template from blogger, never go and search for a prettier one. I was just lazy. Mun Yee, interested to help me to design another new blogskin?

Long-waited post

So sorry guys, I know you guys kept clicking into my blog and left with disappointment. I was just having a busy time with my studies, my exams, my grandma's funeral, watching TVB dramas and... Furthermore, I don't really have much chance to online because 'you know why'. (Haha)

Will post some recent updates of myself. I will be having a 3 weeks holidays, starting from today. Since this year I couldn't celebrate CNY, so I think I would have more time and thus I planned to study during these holidays. I know everyone will be scolding me because of the plan, but hold on, it's just a plan, I think it's not that easy to follow the plan but I 'll try my best to at least study something. So no need to bother about the plan, anyone who wants to ask me out, go ahead, since I've been isolating myself in Seremban for such a long time. I need to have some break too.

Having post-exam syndrome. Everytime after exam, I have the feeling of losing focus. I have no mood to do anything, even watching TV. The day before I had exam, I wasn't studying but watching the TVB dramas that my house owner rented. It's ok, I will recover soon. No worries!

Finished my MCQ exam on Friday and the clinical exam on Monday. I would say I was quite lucky to get a quite easy case and a nice lecturer. Although I couldn't really answer the questions that Mr. Istiaq asked, I think he won't fail me gua. But you won't know until the last moment when you get your results. Like last time the exam for Family Medicine, I thought the external examiner was the nice one, but she was the one who failed my friends. And I got a C for my clinical exam because of her. The MCQ was not that tough, but it's MCQ! I had much uncertainty when writing the answer. But I think I will do better than the Internal Med MCQ, because I only got C+ for that. I think I won't fail, but just couldn't pass with flying colours. So regret that I didn't study hard for surgery. I got 1 week off because of my grandma's funeral, then the 1st two weeks of the posting, I was too relaxing because there was Christmas and New Year holidays. And thus, there were 4 weeks left for me to study. *Sigh* There is no more chance for me to pass with distinction in clinical school.

Finished surgery posting. Actually I like surgery more compared to Internal Medicine. I get to see different operations in the OT (operation theatre), like mastectomy, hernia repair and Janulay procedure for hydrocoele and operation for hypospadia. The mastectomy was the 1st operation I saw for surgery posting, it was done by Miss Kallyani, and I can still remember the operation coz I was too amazed. If I got chance, maybe I might specialized in Surgery, like Miss Grace!! Haha... I think you guys dunno who she is. She is the only Chinese female surgeon in Seremban Hospital. Tell you guys another thing, for surgeon, we don't call them doctor, we call them Mr. for male surgeon and Miss for female surgeon.

Ok, don't want to bore you with my studies stuff. Let's me update you guys with my social life. Haha, don't misunderstand, no bf!! Haha... still hang around with the same gang, Jia Ki, Baxter, Yaw Yee, Fraser and Xian-Nian. Maybe next sem can hang around with some other new friends since the groupings were be changed. Looking forward to the next sem grouping, Jiaki, Yawyee, Xian-Nian and I would be in same group, with Johan, Renee, Ben, Joseph and a lot more that I can't remember. Hope my next group would be a good group, don't make a lot of trouble. *Cross my fingers*

Though I was quite busy with my studies, I did watch some TVB dramas that my house owner rented. Recently, I was watching 'Tie Xue Bao Biao', 'Yummy Yummy' and 'Tian Mu Xia De Lian Ren' (The Canopy of Love). My sister also downloaded some Korean dramas, such as 'Snow Queen' and 'Goong S' but I decided not to watch them anymore because they were not that nice. I think I still prefer TVB dramas more. I miss Kim San Soon, Goong and Bad Family.

Actually wanted to post something about my grandma long time ago, but was too busy. Maybe will update a post for her, but see if I got mood 1st la...

Till here for this post. Long enough to satisfy you guys? Haha... expecting a lot of comments from you all... Happy Valentine's day and Happy Chinese New Year!!! Remember to ask me out for this holidays, if not I can't meet you guys until I finish my Sem 7 finals which will be held during August 2007. Call me anytime, I am on-call 24 hours... Haha...