很久没有写部落格了。说忙，只不过是一个借口。虽然在Batu Pahat，天天忙着portfolio，但是我依然忙里抽空，看了好几部连续剧。也应该说，除了做portfolio，其余的时间，我都是拿来追电视剧了。
常常觉得我不应该这么地继续堕落，却身不由己地，继续下载，继续堕落。终于明白戏瘾，也可以很有杀伤力的。我觉得，在Batu Pahat的这半年，真是浪费。学业不但一直地在退步，也没有特别学到新的东西。唯一让我觉得欣慰的是，在妇产科，有机会帮忙接生及帮忙动手术。
以前勤劳的我，不知何时开始变得越来越懒惰了。对着一成不变的生活，我不再是那个有冲劲的学生，对每一件事都觉得很新奇。开始闷了，开始厌倦了，开始害怕了。
大考快到了，我不知道自己来不来得及念完所有的书。我只知道我没有尽力，失败只不过是自己活该，不能怨别人。
心底依然希望自己可以顺利考过，但又很矛盾的觉得，这样的付出，可以考过的话，应该是奇迹吧！自己也不会感到光荣。实力我是没有的了，只希望运气会好一些！！！
可不可以抛开所有的一切，到一个没有人认识我的地方？
我只想这一切快些过去，却又对未知的未来感到害怕。
我知道每一个人生都需要经过一定的挫折，但是没完没了的，却令人很辛苦。
我只想离开这里尽情享受我的人生。
还需要多久的时间，我才能为所欲为？做自己爱做的事呢？
很难耶！
This is my 3rd week in Batu Pahat. Time flies fast.. I need to submit my portfolios and cfcs report by the end of fourth week. I've been slacking for the whole three weeks, and now I am sufferring after relaxing, rushing to finish all the reports!!
3rd week in Batu Pahat..The life here is a lot of different from Seremban. We have no more lectures, only once a week of medical seminar by Dr. Lee Man Pin (He is a very good teacher.. quoting all the journals to support his treatment.. wondering how big is his brain capacity?). Otherwise we spend most of our time in the wards; covering our beds and looking for our portfolios cases. It seemed that we are not that busy from our schedule but I don't know why, time just slips out from my fingers.. Maybe because I am elected as the leader, I have to handle more stuff than the others. Furthermore, the lecturers always assessing us unconsciously...
Anyway, I hope I can pass through this stage, and pass my finals...
北京奥运会终于落幕了！很遗憾，这次北京奥运会，由于考试的关系，我没办法像往年一样守在电视机前面，追看我爱看的运动项目。还好，我依然没错过最精彩的开幕及闭幕典礼。
其实不是很记得往年的奥运会开幕典礼，只是对上一届的雅典奥运会的开幕典礼，还有少少印象。如果没记错，上届的雅典开幕典礼，让我觉得带有些神秘的色彩。而这次的京奥的开幕，真的是让我一而再，再而三的发出惊叹声。那种庞大的声势，也真的只有中国这种人民很多的国家才办得到。整个开幕完完全全表现出了中国几千年来的文化，真是令人震撼啊！我第一次看时，是看英文体育频道，没有字幕，不能完全感觉到当中的意义。在看重播时，终于更清楚了解当中的意义。看重播时，我依然还是很白痴地，发出声声的惊叹！嘻嘻！
最有印象的，当然是在空中飞来飞去的飞人。据说，这个“吊威也”的“文化”是从华人这儿传出去的。而张艺谋完完全全地善用它，开幕闭幕都充分了利用“吊威也”。哈哈！在这儿，我只能对张艺谋先生致敬。原谅我以前都不怎么爱看你的电影！真是失敬失敬！
虽然过后有很多负面新闻，说什么烟花是假的啦，小歌星背后有代唱啦……可是我觉得中国对京奥的一切努力，可以盖过这些负面新闻。也因为这样，身为华人的我，也引以为傲。
虽然我错过了我最爱看的游泳、我最爱看的跳水、还有韵律操和体操，但是没有错过最精彩的开幕及闭幕典礼，相信应该没有遗憾了吧！
P/S: 相信英国应该在头痛，下一届应该怎样做呢？哈哈！
Can't believe it is over!! Finally, I've finished Sem9 exam.. and I passed!!
It's been a tough time sitting for the exam. But, still I think I did not do my best. Actually I've been quite slacking during the 2 weeks break for study. I think I did not study as hard as I was during my Sem3 and Sem 5 exam. Everything that need to be studied has been studied, and I kept forgetting what I've studied. So depressing!!!
Anyway, I passed!! I was so nervous when the lecturer came in and announced the viva list halfway during our feedback session. When he said that only one went to viva and others should be ok, I can see that everyone was so relieved. I really feel like crying during that time.. Hahaha... This is the only time when our class is so united, hoping everyone can pass the exam.
After this exam, I know I'm still lacking a lot, hope can get to improve much more during Sem10. I think Sem10 exam is the toughest one -- long case without knowing which department you are getting. Jia you!!!
Just got my last posting results.. Gynae and minor posting.. Although I passed all of them, but still I am not satisfied.. Compare to others in my same group, actually I am just on the average side, maybe below average...
I know I shouldn't compare to others, but I just can't help to do that.. I used to be on the above average side, but during Semester 9, my results are deteriorating.. I thought I did better actually.. But life just does not favour my side.. Maybe these results can be one of my motivation to study gua..
Should be studying now... BYE!!
Finals are around the corner, less than 2 weeks time. Compare to last finals in Semester 7, I am less stressful and less motivation. I don’t know why. Remember the time before last finals, I already finish practicing CSU and almost finishing doing past year questions before study break. So during the study break time, I only concentrate on the extra classes and revise all the syllabus. But now, I only started to practice before the CSU is closed for the exam, past year questions I don’t even have the time to look through them yet.
No motivation to study… Everything that has to be studied, I’ve already studied during the posting. Everything that I don’t know is what I’ve forgotten. Whenever doing the past year questions in extra classes, I realized that there are still a lot more to study but I just have no motivation!! The first week of study break is going to end soon, but I haven’t really started to revise anything. Anyone can help me????
I don’t want to fail this exam. I am so close already. I really don’t want to trip up here. 加油！周美妍！
真的好开心，第一次去听演唱会！没有抱太大的希望，因为不是陈奕迅超级歌谜。当然，我本身还是很喜欢他的一些歌，因为他很多首歌都耳熟能详，朗朗上口。
说实话，整个演唱会真得很好看，没有冷场。Eason一出场，就一直唱歌，很少说话。除了介绍舞者和乐队，他一讲话，真得很有笑场。Eason是一个很随性的人，所以在台上，他真得很好笑。
一开始他唱几首慢歌后，然后唱快歌跳舞，又唱又跳，差点没气，还真得有点为他担心。可是过后，他越来越长气，encore都唱了整七八首歌，完全没有意思要散场。还好还好！！可是他好听的歌实在太多了，很多经典的歌都没有唱到，少少可惜。
虽然是RM268的票，我们还是坐得很后面，只看到他好像我的手指那么大。如果没有荧幕，站在台上不是陈奕迅，我都不知道。可是他唱歌真得很好听，实力派果然不是盖的。如果下次赚钱了，叫我买票进场我也愿意。看来，我现在有post-concert syndrome。现在我一直在听陈奕迅的歌。哈哈！！
p/s: 谢谢表姨！因为她捐钱为四川赈灾，所以才得到免费票。做善事之余，又可以看演唱会。听Eason说，演唱会全数的钱会捐给四川赈灾。希望是真的，也敬佩这么多的艺人，以身作则，不遗余力做善事！
今天看到这则新闻，我哭了。
＂一个１２岁的女孩，为了让路给同学逃生，忍痛拽断胳膊。＂
还有让我感动的，乐观的男孩，彬彬。明明很痛苦，却可以微笑地安慰别人。＂我没事了，只是头发乱了，不够帅了！。
因为伤口严重感染，必须进行双腿下段截肢手术。进行手术前，他问医生：＂我以后还能打篮球吗？＂ 医护含泪道：＂等你康复后，医院专门为你准备篮球赛。＂
我真的很想飞到四川去，尽一份绵力。眼看成龙大哥可以第一时间飞到德阳帮那些灾民，真的很羡慕他。
我相信，世间仍然有爱。坏人的存在，只是为了衬托好人的爱！
Finally, finished the clinical exam of Paeds posting. Burden half relived..haha.. But still got many things to bother, CFCS meeting tomorrow(haven't started to do the slides), SAQ on Friday (haven't finished studying).... lots and lots...
I got hydrocephalus for my exam... Actually I already knew the case in the wards earlier because I've joined the previous evening ward rounds. Most of the clinical exam I went through, actually I already know about the case and diagnosis, except for ortho and psy clincial exam last time in Sem 7. Coz I always go and spy the cases the day before. But I think I have to abort this habit, because this is not allowed during Sem10 long case exam.
I didn't really do quite well for this exam, but the lecturer said I did ok. Don't really expect high grades as he usually gives standard grade, which is B-.
Don't really have mood to study for SAQ also.Heard previous groiup said that it is useless to study.Those you have studied, they won't come out. And they'll ask those things that you kinda ignore... No point studying too hard at this last minute...hahaha
Nothing much, just sitting in the library, wandering around, doing PBLs...
Felt that I should update my post since my last post was long time ago. Currently in Paeds posting, it's 3rd week now, but I still blur throughtout the posting. Next week will be having clinical exam and SAQ.. Hope I can start studying effectively from now.
Already staying in S'ban for 2 weekends, which is 3 weeks since the starting of Paeds posting. Looking forward to go back to PJ this weekend, but next week exam won't allow me to be too slack at home..
Waiting for a talk from Dr. Ling at 4.30pm. It's about character building, which I think it benefits me someway. Maybe I'll post something which I learn from the talk someday...
After exam will be having a week of break. Hope that I could get to study my emergency medicine (which I didn't study during the posting) and finish my CFCS report...
Have been to Malacca four times in one year. Last year, after exam, I went there twice with friends and my parents. This year, I went once in March with my parents, and last Saturday, again I went once again with Xin Yi. Haha... I think it has become my 2nd hometown... Both me and Xin Yi really like Malacca this place a lot.
Actually Xin Yi and I have wished to go walk around in Jonker Street in Malacca but we only able to make it on last Saturday. Basically we just shop, shop, and shop around Malacca. Oh ya, we also eat, eat and eat, and I put on weight because of that.. haha... We went for dinner in a seafood restaurant at Alai. Maybe I should say it was supper because we have that around 10pm. We ordered sting rays, fried sotong, otak-otak and prawns. This was my 3rd time eating sting rays. First time was in Miri and second time was also with Xin Yi in a food court. My mum never cook sting rays, but I really like the texture of sting rays. The sotong and the prawns were all very nice too. But I can't remember the way to the restaurant, if not I can bring my parents there whenever we go to Malacca. Oh ya.. Never forget that the pork noodle which I have the next morming was also very nice.. Yummy yummy... me started drooling already...
I've bought 2 tops, which priced RM29 per piece. Actually I was in dilemma in choosing which one to buy, and Xin Yi encouraged me to buy both. And I bought both, still haven't regretted yet, because I think both are very nice, although both are same in colour.
I also wanna recommend a shop which sells local snacks and homemade noodle in Jonker Street. The 'dou sha bing' there is super super nice and all those cookies they sell are cheaper from the other shops. I won't mind doing free promotion for that shop... haha... It's one of the shop at the end of the corner, there's a 100 written at the wall of the shop.
Another must-go-place near the Jonker Street, it is the Hereen Street Heritage House. I went there during my first trip, but kinda forgot where is it located exactly. Wanted to bring Xin Yi there, after driving around for a few times, and I found that it was closed.
Really enjoy the whole trip and I left Malacca with all my purchases. Kinda satisfied!!
Here are some pics (Credit to Xin Yi):
Walking along Malacca River, which I have never done for my previous three trips to Malacca
Cheers for our friendship!!
Friendship forever!!
Took this while having a drink at Geographer. Wished I was there at night, which the atmosphere is better...
In surgery now. Not as hectic as I thought, but there are a lot of stuff to read. I almost forgot everything I studied in Sem 6 & 7. Have to revise everything again and also the management part. I like surgery, until the moment. It's fun to watch operation being done, if you get to see something, but not the surgeon's back. Although I don't know what they are doing, which layer they are cutting, I still enjoy watching it, despite the cold temperature in the operation theatre.
Being in Sem 9 currently, I am really motivated to read more things about the management. But more reading make me more confused... Haha... But I really want to know every little bits and tits. Not much time left, though. Only three weeks left. Anyway, I really hope that I can pass through the clinical exam and SAQ.
Has changed my background song to Miracle by Super Junior. My previous music was also Miracle from Goong S Soundtrack. This is just a co-incidence. I was in love with Super Junior after I accidentally clicked one of their shows in crunchyroll. I don't want to bore my reader by telling about them... haha... But I do think they have their own potential to become one of the famous team in Korea. Enjoy the song!!
Super Junior - Miracle
Life couldn’t get better
Life couldn’t get better
ji geum gga ji eob deon si gan neun eo deum mi yeo jyo(without you baby)
neo reul man nan hu na ye saeng hwal reun ggum man gat ta yo(baby)
neo reul cheo eum bon sun gan(cheo eum bon sun gan)
a Miracle (a Miracle)
nan neu ggyeo jyo ki jeok geun ba ro neo ran geol
Life couldn’t get better (Hey~)
nan neol pum me an go nal ra pu reun dal reul hyang hae nal ra(Ho~)
jam deun neo ye ib mat chul geo ya
Life couldn’t get better (Hey)
neo ye mam me mun neul yeol reo jweo keu dae nae son neul jab ba yo
Life couldn’t get better
mae il mae il pyeong beom hae deon nal deul ri I jen dal ra jyeo seo yo(a holidy)
sae sang mo den sa ram del i heng bok hae po yae yo(I wanna thank you, baby)
neo reul cheo eum bon sun gan(cheo eum bon sun gan)
a Miracle (a Miracle)
nan neu ggyeo jyo ki jeok geun ba ro neo ran geol
Life couldn’t get better (Hey~)
nan neol pum me an go nal ra pu reun dal reul hyang hae nal ra(Ho~)
jam deun neo ye ib mat chul geo yaLife couldn’t get better (Hey)
neo ye mam me mun neul yeol reo jweo keu dae nae son neul jab ba yo
Life couldn’t get better
Life couldn’t get............. better
neol cheo eum bon sun gan
a Miracle (a Miracle)
I love you baby, and I'm never gonna stop
Life couldn’t get better (Hey)
nan neol pum me an go nal ra pu reun dal reul hyang hae nal ra (Ho~)
jam deun neo ye ib mat chul geo yaLife couldn’t get better (Hey~)
neo ye mam me mun neul yeol reo jweo keu dae nae son neul jab ba yo
Life couldn’t get better (Hey)
nan neol pum me an go nal ra pu reun dal reul hyang hae nal ra(Ho~)
jam deun neo ye ib mat chul geo yaLife couldn’t get better (Hey)
neo ye mam meul mun neul yeol reo jweo keu dae nae son neul jab ba yo
Life couldn’t get better
P/S: Would like to post more songs soon if I have time...
之前对这个人，并没有什么感觉。除了觉得跟他不是很投机、还有觉得他有时蛮有风度之外，就没有任何感觉了。可是今天，真正跟他接触后，我觉得对他有些反感。
第一，他就是那种我讲的，受英文教育的人。他是那种真的完全不讲华语，不会读、不会看、只会听明白少少的。听说他假期去学讲中文，我还蛮欣赏他的。结果，我发现到他学中文是另有目的的。话说，当我们在说几句中文时，他就一直问我们这是什么意思、那是什么意思。我们就鼓励他多讲，那才可以进步神速。结果，他说的话，真是令我大跌眼镜。他说，他不要，因为他要让别人以为他不懂中文，所以但别人在说中文时，他可以听懂别人说什么，但别人却不知他听得懂。懂得中文，很羞耻吗？干吗明明听得明白，却要装不懂，偷听别人的对话，真是很没品！
最近大家的话题都围绕着大选，我其实对政治真得没有很了，谁打谁我都不知道。可是，因为今年选举的新闻，好像看连续剧那么精彩，所以最近我也会比较留意国内版。今天在图书馆时，我正在看着报纸，不知怎么的，他就说我政治冷感。说真的，我就是那种属于政治冷感的人，因为我觉得政治就是鬼打鬼的无聊游戏，有什么好看的？可是他也不需要指着林冠英的名字，问我知不知道他是谁，还有他是谁的儿子。这种问题，白痴都会回答啦，他最近那么出名。虽然以前我真得不知道他是谁，只是最近才懂，但也不用那么污辱我的政治常识吧！
他还笑我英文差。我知道我英文是很差啦，但也不需要笑我啊！我听不懂那教授的笑话，不是因为英文差，而是我完全没再听他讲话，还有那种低级的笑话，我还不屑听呢！我都还没笑他，身为华人，都不会中文，这才丢脸呢！
最后，最令我反感的事，他那么“大只”，竟然没有捐过血，还枉称自己是医科生。就连最基本的、不须费任何力的救人方法之一，他也不曾去做。他在翻我的钱包，看到我的捐器官卡时，还说他不可能会捐出他的器官。我了解，每个人都有自己的选择，但你也不用那么大声地说。不捐器官不是什么大不了的事，但让人看到你丑陋的性格，那么不光彩的事，真的不用那么大声地说出来。这种自私的人，全班第一又怎样？我鄙视他！
I don’t understand, what’s wrong of being Chinese educated? One of our lecturers pointed out those who are Chinese educated in the class. I not sure why he did that because I wasn’t in that group. I heard this from someone else and I think it is insulting. Is it that those who are Chinese educated are labeled that having poor English?
I was chatting happily with my friend in Chinese in the hospital area. The same lecturer walked by us and asked us, “What language are you speaking? IMU is an English speaking campus.” I was quite embarrassed at that time when he said that. However, later I thought it over again and felt that I was not violating any school rules by speaking Chinese in hospital area. Yes, I know IMU is an English speaking campus. SO WHAT? I was in hospital area, and I was only chatting with my friend without any other races with us. I understand Dr. Xavier told us that it is better to speak English when different races are around as this shows respect.
Had a conversation with my batch mates after a badminton session. All of them are Malay educated Chinese except me. They are quite regret that they as Chinese, do not know how to read and write Chinese. One of them said that she would send her child to Chinese school but then she said she doesn’t want her child to be too ‘Chinese’. Again, what’s wrong of being too ‘Chinese’?
I am proud to be a Chinese. As a Chinese, I know how to read and write in my mother tongue well. I listen to Chinese songs, read Chinese newspaper, listen to Chinese radio and watch Chinese shows. I know how to read the menu which is written in Chinese. Still, I am studying medicine using English language. I won’t say I have super duper good English, but my English is improving after I entered med school. And who said that those who are Chinese educated have poor English? Many of my friends have very good English even though they are Chinese educated.
It’s not wrong to be Chinese educated and don’t be ashamed of that. Don’t think that you are more superior if you are English educated. Chinese is the second most commonly used language in the world following English. By powering these two languages, my working opportunities are much more. In Malaysia, people who know both languages are not appreciated as there are a bunch of us here. But in China, a person who knows both languages well can earn as much as USD5000 per month by working as an auditor.
I know a lot of my friends who are not Chinese educated quite regret that not having a chance to learn Chinese. This is forgivable. But for those who think that Chinese educated are more inferior, please be ashamed of yourself! Imagine the situation that, a foreigner who is learning Chinese, asking you to teach him/her, and you told him/her, “Oh sorry, I don’t know how to read Chinese!” I hope his/her response would be, “How could it be? As a Chinese, you don’t know how to read Chinese? It is just similar that as an English, but you don’t know how to read English.” Yes, this is embarrassing. Haha!!
见识到网路的威力，在陈冠希淫照事件之后。不在任何人控制之下，淫照可以传遍全世界。
以前的媒介，只有报纸和电视机。但是这两大媒介受人监督及控制，只要有任何差池，要揪出造谣者，比起网路的茫茫人海中，容易多了。
这次大选中，反对党利用网路及简讯的威力来拉票。执政党则利用电视及电台来打广告。事实证明，前者的方式，还真得蛮有效的。渔夫得利的，就是电讯公司、电视台及电台了。
或许该说，这两种方式吸引的族群不一样吧！前者吸引到的会是较年轻的族群，而后者则是较年老的族群。不过我相信，不到十年，网路可以影响任何年龄的族群。
反政狂潮一直都热不起来，一直到今年，借着网路及电邮的威力，这可是我出生以来，看到最“热”的一次。
这次大选，出现许多意想不到的成绩。许多以为稳赢的议员，却意外的输掉了，而且还是输掉很多票的那种。
再次声明，我的立场永远是中立的。无论是反对党或执政党，我只会支持真正在做事的人，而不是口沫横飞，却袖手旁观的人。
一直以来，对政治人物都没有什么好感。总觉得他们都是假惺惺的人，说话不算话。对于政治，一向都没有太大兴趣，也不会去留意政治新闻，只是有时候会翻翻两下。因为最近的选举活动，对于政治才比较留意，至少我知道我的区域的代表，还有几个比较出名的代表。
翻开报纸，都是选举的新闻。我真的好讨厌那些政治人物在互骂敌党，连名带姓地骂，真得很不专业。这是领导人物之为吗？这些没有风度，没有EQ的人，能带领马来西亚迈向2020年吗？从报纸上，我已经看到很多的人性丑态，已经对这些人很反感。有一个当记者的朋友，还告诉我一些内幕，我更觉得灰心。如果这些人再这样搞下去，我相信马来西亚永远都会停滞不前，在原地踏步。那时候，将会有更多人才外流的现象。
这次是我第一次投票，当然需要了解多一些。虽然有机会投票，但我认为我那微不足道的一票，不至于改变任何结果。政治太黑暗，人性的丑陋，让我真的有少少的失望。
p/s：写这篇文章，并没有针对任何人而写。当然我也相信在一群黑乌鸦里头，仍然有一些白鸽（哈，好奇怪的形容词！）。我也希望这些真的为国家鞠躬尽瘁、为人民尽心尽力的人，可以带领国家走向更好的未来。而那些花着人民纳税钱，又口水多过茶的人，真的，拜托你们，别再霸着那位子了！
人越长越大，就会有更多机会接触死亡。不知从何开始了解死亡，或许该说，到现在也不知死亡是什么东东吧！以科学角度来说，死亡是当心脏无法在跳动，或是脑细胞已经死掉。以宗教的角度来说，死亡只不过是肉体消失，但灵魂仍然存在。
记忆中，不曾有人告诉我什么是死亡。应该是上科学课的时候有学过吧！我一直尝试回想接触死亡的第一次是什么时候，可是却真的想不起来。印象中，我好像不曾问大人，什么是死亡。太婆去世时，我还很小，完全没有印象。姨婆去世时，我应该有2年级吧，可是那时却完全没感觉。还记得在姨婆的葬礼，我还跑来跑去，没有悲伤的感觉。姐姐还说走之前不要望后面，要不然会看到尸体跳起来，跟你说拜拜。过后，也有亲戚去世，是那种说熟又不是很熟，说不熟又每年新年会见一次面的那种。过后，我的中学华语老师患脑癌去世了。在医院，也常常有病人去世，但是当医生抢救时，都会关起帘子。唯一一次是在急诊室时，我有份帮忙抢救的病人在我面前断气。看到他家人哀号的时候，我就觉得少少的难过，因为那病人还年轻过我。过后我还帮忙整理他的遗体。
真正有很亲的人去世时，是去年婆婆去世的时候。当时虽然已经有心理准备，但知道消息时，依然很震惊。婆婆的逝世，我很快就恢复了，应该只有一天吧。这样说，好像有点不孝，可是我真的没有伤心太多天。上个月，患上癌症的堂姐也去世了。一听到消息时，我还在睡梦中，刚巧的是，我还梦到她。不记的是什么样的梦，可是就觉得有点‘邪’。由于是“白头人送黑头人”，所以就觉得比较伤感。虽然没有哭，但是我真的觉得有点不舍。堂姐是那种很开朗又友善的人，她的葬礼真的有很多朋友出席。堂哥说她交友满天下，她很多朋友还哭得很厉害。从她刚刚患癌症时，虽然已经是第四期，看她健康的样子，还以为有机会痊愈。直到上个月，她入院后，情况时好时坏，我心想应该没有机会痊愈了。可能因为读医科的关系，对于我来说，最重要的是去得舒服，而不是尝试延长生命而希望奇迹出现。我的看法是，过有quality的生活，而不是只有quantity的生活。
其实忽然间想写死亡，是因为我的一个六岁的堂侄。他跟他姑姑，也就是我那位刚去世的堂姐，关系很好。堂姐入院后，他爸爸，也就是我堂哥，没让他去医院探望她，是说怕他看到他姑姑的病样会有阴影。堂姐葬礼时，小堂侄也没出席。堂嫂跟他说，姑姑已经回家了。他很天真地问，姑姑回家了，是不是好了？堂嫂说，姑姑已经跟着太婆在很远的地方，在那边太婆会照顾姑姑。小堂侄似懂非懂的，不晓得他明白没。我在想，如果有一天，我的孩子问我，什么是死亡，除了这个“去了很远的地方”的理论，我还可以有什么答案？说得太深奥，又听不懂。我以前是怎样知道死亡，到现在我还想不起。
p/s: “To live with dignity （有尊严地活着）!” 是palliative care的宗旨。
