坏人

前天看见有一个人扶一个盲人过马路，我觉得很窝心。他让我觉得这世界上不乏好人，他还是一个异族同胞。虽然我对异族同胞没有偏见，但因为我家人曾被异族同胞伤害，所以妈妈还是很讨厌 “那种族” 。他也让我觉得，其实 “他们” 并不是全都是坏人。

但今天，看到有一个朋友却被 “异族” 欺压，真的很令人气愤。话说，我朋友在卖二手衣。“她” 选了几件。我朋友开出一个价钱，“她” 却嫌贵。而我朋友开的价钱，我个人认为其实是很便宜的。两件上衣加两件裙，又是蛮新的，才卖RM40。我朋友就说RM30，“她” 还嫌贵。然后 “她” 就不要其中一件裙。朋友就开价RM15，两件上衣加一件裙，RM15已经很便宜咯！平均一件才五块。“她” 竟然只给十块！结果，所有人看见了，都起哄说别欺负我朋友。“她” 还可以理直气壮地认为买东西就应该减价。

我真的觉得 “她” 太过份了！事后，我跟朋友说，其实有一件我也蛮中意的。只是我知道我朋友应该会卖很便宜给我。为了让朋友赚多点，我才没跟 “她” 争。怎知 “她” 却那样来欺压我朋友。早知如此，我应该把那件衣服买回来，那样我朋友可以赚更多，因为至少我不会那样不知廉耻。不过 “她” 平时已经很嚣张了，我要抢，也抢不过 “她” 吧！

越想就越生气，实在太太太过份了！你们说是吗？

A&E Posting

Currently I am in A & E posting now. I have been looking forward to this posting since semester 8. I always think that A & E doctors look smarter as they are really handling emergency cases. (Haha… I think got a lot of influences from drama too.)

Our group is posted to on-call at night. I skipped my on-call on 1st day (I was lazy). Came on-call on Tuesday around 7pm. There was not much patients yet and we gotta do a study on triage. This study need to be done as the head of department of HTJ asked us to. It’s a study to determine the number of cases which are mistriaged. Haih… we, the student, are just been used to do a study for her.

There was no admission to the critical zone but there were a few cases in semi-critical zone. I got to perform an ECG and IM injection on patients but I haven’t got the chance to set IV line as everyone is fighting to do procedures. Some of the staff nurses and MAs are really kind to teach us doing procedure. I have set IV line on obstetric patients before, but not on normal patients. It is easier to set IV line on obstetric patients as their veins are dilated. I succeeded every time when on obstetric patients but haven’t tried on normal patients. Not many cases seen on Tuesday but we got a lot of chance to do procedure.

On Wednesday, I went around 9pm. It was a boring day, as there were lesser cases seen than on Tuesday. Did ECG again but still haven’t got the chance to set drip. There was 1 case of status epilepticus. Left around 12am.

Thursday, a very busy day. We reached around 9pm too. There were a few cases in red zone (critical zone). A 17 year-old man had an MVA, involving motorbike vs motorbike. His condition was quite serious. And finally we got the chance to help out the doctors. We help to bag the patient. The patient stopped breathing and has no more pulse. It was really acute. We get to helped out to resuscitate the patient. This is the 1st time I am doing CPR on a real patient. I actually did wrongly and the doctor stopped me. All of us took turn to do CPR and after 15 minutes, we failed to resuscitate the patient. It was really sad when we need to stop resuscitating and the patient’s family was crying out there. After that, we also helped the staff nurse to clean up the patient. This was a memorable experience and I think I never forget it. Although I failed at my 1st time, I really hope that in the future, I get to save patient whenever I need to do a CPR.

Actually during the 1st two days of the posting, I was quite disappointed as the doctors in A & E look quite slack. I can’t really feel the tense atmosphere of A & E. But after the incident, I really can see that the doctors are doing things. It is very acute when there is an emergency case. At least there is no ignorance… I am really interested in emergency medicine, maybe I’ll take up emergency medicine as my specialty.

爱情果

第一次吃爱情果。
之前完全没吃过、也没看过爱情果。
味道如何？
有点酸酸的、又有点涩涩的、也有点甜甜的。
吃完之后，又有点回甘的感觉。
很奇妙的一种感觉。
哈哈，难道这就是所谓的爱情的感觉吗？
所以这种水果才叫爱情果？
说实在的，并没有很喜欢它的味道，或许还不习惯吧！
嗯，或许潜意识中，我也没准备迎接爱情的来临吧！
哈，还是想太多了吧？
不知大家有没有吃过爱情果？吃了之后，又有什么感觉呢？

No more Pizza Hut!!

This is not the first time. I always have bad experience with Pizza Hut's service. Maybe next time I should have boycott them. No offend to any Pizza Hut's lover, I am just telling my own feeling about them.

My first bad experience was in Pizza Hut in Sri Petaling. We ordered our food but it took more than an hour to serve our food. Those who came later than us already had their food served but not us. We complaint and threatened to see their manager. As a compensation, they gave us just a bowl of salad. We waited until we don't feel like eating anymore.

Another time was in Jusco Pizza Hut in Seremban 2. We went in and wanna ordered our food, but all our orders were not available. Fine, so we left without having our meal there. That wasn't that bad, still.

Recently again, in Seremban Parade's Pizza Hut, it was time for 'buka puasa', so it was quite crowded. We wanted to order our food, a few times, we tried to call the waiter, but they just signaled us to wait. We was hungry, and of course, with an empty stomach, we got angry easily. One of the waitress asked us to wait as they were preparing for 'buka puasa'. We waited for half an hour, and finally we gave up and we left Pizza Hut and went to McDonald. I don't mind waiting but with an empty stomach, and looking at those Malays were served except us, I was so angry. After that, in McDonald, we kept talking bad about Pizza Hut... Haha..

Finally, I had one meal in Pizza Hut after all the bad experiences, still it could not change my bad impression on Pizza Hut. It took ages for them to serve the cheese powder. I still think that it has the worst fastfood service in Malaysia... Friends...no more Pizza Hut if going out with me, k?

Long-waited Post

Sorry for the long-waited post. It's been such a long time since my last post... Again, same excuses... no internet connection, no time, and never-ending exams...haha. Finally I finished Semester 7, and I am one step nearer to become a doctor. Actually I am kinda afraid of thinking about that. Why? I think I enjoy study life more than working, I always think that working life is tougher... Nevermind, "既来之，则安之", before that I also thought that I don't like clinical school life, but I've already gone through 1 year of clinical school.

I've finished Sem 7 exam and I passed. Don't know about the grade yet. AAD said they will send the grades to our parents. Not sure if they are reliable, because they never even send the posting results to my parents. I really hope that I could get good grades for my SAQ and OSPE, of course for OSCE too, if possible, coz I dun think I did well enough for my OSCE. Anyway, I passed and I am gonna be in Sem 8 soon, a honeymoon semester, I suppose, but I don't wanna waste this half year. I was so regret as I've wasted my Sem 6 and Sem 7. I need to be more hardworking!!

After the exam, I went to Malacca with Jin-Yu and Baxter. An unplanned trip actually, to meet Yi Ning who went to Malacca with her mom. Tasted Malacca local food such as chicken rice ball and 'satay celu'. Actually this was my first time eating chicken rice ball but it wasn't as delicious as what I expected. I prefer chicken rice still..haha. 'Satay celup' too, was the first time I trying this, for those who doesn't know, just for information, it's actually something like steamboat but with the soup changed to satay sauce. Very nice!! Highly recommended for those who never try before. We kept eating throughout the whole trip... I think I've gained weight after that trip... Luckily we also did a lot of walking too... to burn some calories gained!!


Satay Celup Yummy Yummy!!



This photo was taken by me.... Nice leh? =P



Malacca Stadhuys



Kota A Famosa




Heberdeen Street Heritage House
One of the most memorable experiences during the whole trip to Malacca. We went to this heritage house because it was free entrance. There's this Mr. Colin explaining the Dutch culture and their buildings to us. At least now I know why all the Dutch houses are narrow but long. Wanna make a guess? Those pictures which were taken in the heritage house are not for published, so I just posted this pic, showing the Dutch toilet... haha... (Oh ya, not sure if I get the street name right?)


And 2 days after I came back from Malacca, I went to Malacca again with my parents. This trip was planned earlier before my exam. So now I am quite familiar with Malacca...haha...call me if you need a tour guide in Malacca. Remember to pay me also...haha... Not much of walking if compare to the trip earlier coz my father drove. However my arm got sun burnt and I could still see the marks on my arms and legs now.



Hang Li Po's Well in Bukit Cina


Trishaws (RM40 per hour!!)


I was watching dramas and movies during these holidays. Never get to study at all. Finally I finished 'The Brink of Law' (突圍行動). I was watching it in Seremban as my owner has the dvds but never manage to finish it before she returned the dvds. I wanna watch this because it was acted by Steven Ma and Bernice... I really like both of them. They have another new drama '舞动全城' showing in Astro on demand soon but I won't have the chance to watch. Next target --> 舞动全城!!!




P/S: Has taken more photos than these, but I can't upload all because it took time to upload photos.. It's so late now, and I wanna sleep..ZZzzz...
p/s: Happy Merdeka Day!!!

Aura

I got a strong aura that I am going to fall sick soon, feel strange since this morning. I hope it's not dengue again because my room got a lot of aedes and I was bitten by them... saw 1 petechiae on my forearm.

By the way, for my recent updates, I've just finished my Paediatrics Clinical Exam. Got a case of pneumonia with Down's Syndrome and underlying ventricular septal defect in failure. I thought it was quite a complicated case, but I've seen her few times before the exam, so I think overall performance should be ok la... The examiner did not comment on my performance, hope can get a good result.

My next posting is Obstetric. Wuwuwu... I don't wanna change posting, I like paeds!!! Babies are cute... guchi guchi...hehe...

An Exhausting Weekend

A different weekend from a usual weekend as Jia Ki came to my house and stayed over. She had to attend a convocation of her friend in KL and needed a place to stay overnight. And I actually went out everyday during that weekend compared to usual weekend, I only stay at home watching TV.

On Friday, after our CP and submitted our case summaries, we went back KL with Iona. On the way back to KL, Jia Ki remembered that she left her shoes in Seremban and she had only a pair of slippers which she was wearing now. She called Yu Ying, our junior, who was going back to KL for his IMU convocation, to collect her shoes in her house. Unfortunately, the gate outside was locked and Yu Ying couldn’t enter the house. Jia Ki asked him to climb the gate, Yu Ying tried but he failed. Then he messaged us that Jia Ki’s neighbours and neighbour classmates were looking at him. Haha… I wonder how funny Yu Ying looked during that time. If I were him, I would dig one hole and bury myself in. So embarrassing...

Since Jia Ki had no shoes to attend the convocation on Saturday, we had to shop for her shoes. We asked Andy, our senior, to come along to Sunway Pyramid. This was the first time we went shopping with Andy. Jia Ki managed to get her shoes and a new battery for her handphone. Her handphone always died off and it was quite irritating sometimes when I couldn’t manage to get her. I knew Andy since Sem 6 through Jia-Ki but we usually did not chat a lot. But I think after this shopping event, relationship of three of us has improved a lot... We can chat nonsense non stop and it was very interesting looking both of them arguing and sometimes I would involve myself in too...

On Saturday, I fetched Jia Ki to the LRT station. Haha… Not many of my friends actually sat in the car I drove. It was countable using one hand only, I think, excluding my family, Yi Ning, Baxter, Racine and Jia Ki… So be proud of it, haha…I managed to do part of my research in the afternoon as in the morning, I was busying checking mails and chatting online. Haha…

On Saturday night, Andy, the knowledgeable person (he claimed himself that), brought us to his martial art centre. I didn’t know that he knew Taekwondo only after I saw his testimonial in friendster. He is one of the coaches. Too bad that he did not demonstrate his ‘skills’ to us. Andy, so disappointing!! By the way, I really felt like introducing him to my sister since I think he is quite a nice guy…lol…

On Sunday morning, we had another date with Jia Ki’s ‘lalat’. I was so tired that felt like missing in action. We did attend the date finally. Damien, the ‘lalat’ came to fetch us and we went One Utama because Andy said there was a dog show. However the dog show ended before we reached. This was the first time I attend this kind of date. Actually Damien knew Jia Ki through friendster and he asked Jia Ki to come out when he knew that Jia Ki was going to KL. Jia Ki asked me along and said he would treat us free lunch. I felt quite weird initially as both of them looked so close even though that was the first time they met each other. Initially I thought it would be like we had nothing much to chat but actually we chatted quite happily. When he was explaining what his job does, Jia Ki and I were so blurred that we pretended to understand what he said. I think I really lost touch with the world and my life was all medical stuff. We went to ‘Chillis’ for lunch and the food was quite expensive there. Luckily someone was treating. After that, I was so exhausted but had to packed and go back to Seremban.

Happy or Sad?

Results are out today. I dunno if I wanna be happy or be sad now. I got my first A in clinical school, but also got my 1st failure... Should I be happy or should I be sad?? Why?? I didn't expect to fail as well as I didn't expect to get A. I knew I did badly for the Ortho MCQ but I really didn't expect to fail. I thought at least I could barely pass.. For the clinical, although the lecturer said he wanna give me an A, he only give me 72 (which is a B+), so I didn't expect the A as well...

Too big contrast.. I still couldn't believe it...

Guilty

Today my mum was asking me how my studies going on in clinical school. I was so surprised to hear that she did not receive any of my results from the uni. I am not used to tell my mum about my results since the uni would send my results home since phase 1. I thought they gonna get my results as usual in phase 2.

So I told her, "OK lo, no more A... All B and C..."

Mum: "Why no more A?"

Me: "Coz it's getting difficult in clinical school.."

Mum: "Then others le? No1 get A?"

Me: "Got, those very smart 1..."

Mum: " I thought you are the smart 1 in the class... you were in dean's list last time."

(Oh Gosh, this is the same thing that one of my friend said in MSN, when I was complaining the tough life in clinical school...)

Me: "I don't have time to study, have to do research and reports...." Started to give all the excuses... in fact, I don't really have mood to study even exam is around the corner..

Then she started to tell me, must study hard, as our financial status could not afford me if I have to repeat.. Everytime when she said about the 'thing', I felt more guilty as I've not been studying hard and spending a lot of money...

I am so guilty now... but all the reports and research stuff took all my time... When could I just study without worrying all those reports and research? I need time to study..... I don't wanna repeat!!

Self Injury

Recently I was doing a research on self-injury. I gotta look through the self-injury forum, read post by post, page by page, to see what they talked about in the forum, to see the member prevalence... And this is so frustrating... I couldn't imagine when I can finish this research, it looked so easy but when I started, everything is a mess, I need to do it over and over again due to some miscommunication among our research group member..

The posts are all almost the same thing, "I've been cutting myself", "I'm so triggered", "I couldn't control the urge", mainly all the members came to the forum when they were so triggered to cut themself to get some support from the other members.

Some of them share their stories, ya....I couldn't imagine it was actually happened in real life. They were too tragedic and dramatic. It's just something beyond my world.

Some of them came to give moral support for those who are triggered. "Stay strong!", "take care", "PM me when you need someone to talk". Most of them self-cut and give support at the same time. When someone is triggered, they try to distract him/her from the urge by posting or ask him/her to make him/herself occupied.

And some of them express their feeling and most of the posts are fulled of "f***" words, which I didn't feel comfortable earlier, and now I kinda get used to it, but still I hate the word. Never ever say the word in front of me k?

I kinda sympathized them as they are suffering from this self cut habit. Some of them self cut because they have some mental disorders, but some of them just cut for nothing... So I think I am the lucky one as I do not suffer as they do, or maybe I've much higher tolerance than them... I've never thought of self cut when I have low mood...

Actually all these things must be kept private and confidential but I did not disclose any of their personal details... so I think it would be fine. But if they know that we are doing a research on them, I wonder how they think.