害怕、烦恼、愚蠢

可不可以抛开所有的一切，到一个没有人认识我的地方？

我只想这一切快些过去，却又对未知的未来感到害怕。

我知道每一个人生都需要经过一定的挫折，但是没完没了的，却令人很辛苦。

我只想离开这里尽情享受我的人生。

还需要多久的时间，我才能为所欲为？做自己爱做的事呢？

很难耶！

Life in Batu Pahat

This is my 3rd week in Batu Pahat. Time flies fast.. I need to submit my portfolios and cfcs report by the end of fourth week. I've been slacking for the whole three weeks, and now I am sufferring after relaxing, rushing to finish all the reports!!

3rd week in Batu Pahat..The life here is a lot of different from Seremban. We have no more lectures, only once a week of medical seminar by Dr. Lee Man Pin (He is a very good teacher.. quoting all the journals to support his treatment.. wondering how big is his brain capacity?). Otherwise we spend most of our time in the wards; covering our beds and looking for our portfolios cases. It seemed that we are not that busy from our schedule but I don't know why, time just slips out from my fingers.. Maybe because I am elected as the leader, I have to handle more stuff than the others. Furthermore, the lecturers always assessing us unconsciously...

Anyway, I hope I can pass through this stage, and pass my finals...

北京奥运会

北京奥运会终于落幕了！很遗憾，这次北京奥运会，由于考试的关系，我没办法像往年一样守在电视机前面，追看我爱看的运动项目。还好，我依然没错过最精彩的开幕及闭幕典礼。

其实不是很记得往年的奥运会开幕典礼，只是对上一届的雅典奥运会的开幕典礼，还有少少印象。如果没记错，上届的雅典开幕典礼，让我觉得带有些神秘的色彩。而这次的京奥的开幕，真的是让我一而再，再而三的发出惊叹声。那种庞大的声势，也真的只有中国这种人民很多的国家才办得到。整个开幕完完全全表现出了中国几千年来的文化，真是令人震撼啊！我第一次看时，是看英文体育频道，没有字幕，不能完全感觉到当中的意义。在看重播时，终于更清楚了解当中的意义。看重播时，我依然还是很白痴地，发出声声的惊叹！嘻嘻！

最有印象的，当然是在空中飞来飞去的飞人。据说，这个“吊威也”的“文化”是从华人这儿传出去的。而张艺谋完完全全地善用它，开幕闭幕都充分了利用“吊威也”。哈哈！在这儿，我只能对张艺谋先生致敬。原谅我以前都不怎么爱看你的电影！真是失敬失敬！

虽然过后有很多负面新闻，说什么烟花是假的啦，小歌星背后有代唱啦……可是我觉得中国对京奥的一切努力，可以盖过这些负面新闻。也因为这样，身为华人的我，也引以为傲。

虽然我错过了我最爱看的游泳、我最爱看的跳水、还有韵律操和体操，但是没有错过最精彩的开幕及闭幕典礼，相信应该没有遗憾了吧！

P/S: 相信英国应该在头痛，下一届应该怎样做呢？哈哈！

Finally...

Can't believe it is over!! Finally, I've finished Sem9 exam.. and I passed!!

It's been a tough time sitting for the exam. But, still I think I did not do my best. Actually I've been quite slacking during the 2 weeks break for study. I think I did not study as hard as I was during my Sem3 and Sem 5 exam. Everything that need to be studied has been studied, and I kept forgetting what I've studied. So depressing!!!

Anyway, I passed!! I was so nervous when the lecturer came in and announced the viva list halfway during our feedback session. When he said that only one went to viva and others should be ok, I can see that everyone was so relieved. I really feel like crying during that time.. Hahaha... This is the only time when our class is so united, hoping everyone can pass the exam.

After this exam, I know I'm still lacking a lot, hope can get to improve much more during Sem10. I think Sem10 exam is the toughest one -- long case without knowing which department you are getting. Jia you!!!

Results of last posting

Just got my last posting results.. Gynae and minor posting.. Although I passed all of them, but still I am not satisfied.. Compare to others in my same group, actually I am just on the average side, maybe below average...

I know I shouldn't compare to others, but I just can't help to do that.. I used to be on the above average side, but during Semester 9, my results are deteriorating.. I thought I did better actually.. But life just does not favour my side.. Maybe these results can be one of my motivation to study gua..

Should be studying now... BYE!!

Finals

Finals are around the corner, less than 2 weeks time. Compare to last finals in Semester 7, I am less stressful and less motivation. I don’t know why. Remember the time before last finals, I already finish practicing CSU and almost finishing doing past year questions before study break. So during the study break time, I only concentrate on the extra classes and revise all the syllabus. But now, I only started to practice before the CSU is closed for the exam, past year questions I don’t even have the time to look through them yet.

No motivation to study… Everything that has to be studied, I’ve already studied during the posting. Everything that I don’t know is what I’ve forgotten. Whenever doing the past year questions in extra classes, I realized that there are still a lot more to study but I just have no motivation!! The first week of study break is going to end soon, but I haven’t really started to revise anything. Anyone can help me????

I don’t want to fail this exam. I am so close already. I really don’t want to trip up here. 加油！周美妍！

陈奕迅演唱会

真的好开心，第一次去听演唱会！没有抱太大的希望，因为不是陈奕迅超级歌谜。当然，我本身还是很喜欢他的一些歌，因为他很多首歌都耳熟能详，朗朗上口。

说实话，整个演唱会真得很好看，没有冷场。Eason一出场，就一直唱歌，很少说话。除了介绍舞者和乐队，他一讲话，真得很有笑场。Eason是一个很随性的人，所以在台上，他真得很好笑。

一开始他唱几首慢歌后，然后唱快歌跳舞，又唱又跳，差点没气，还真得有点为他担心。可是过后，他越来越长气，encore都唱了整七八首歌，完全没有意思要散场。还好还好！！可是他好听的歌实在太多了，很多经典的歌都没有唱到，少少可惜。

虽然是RM268的票，我们还是坐得很后面，只看到他好像我的手指那么大。如果没有荧幕，站在台上不是陈奕迅，我都不知道。可是他唱歌真得很好听，实力派果然不是盖的。如果下次赚钱了，叫我买票进场我也愿意。看来，我现在有post-concert syndrome。现在我一直在听陈奕迅的歌。哈哈！！

p/s: 谢谢表姨！因为她捐钱为四川赈灾，所以才得到免费票。做善事之余，又可以看演唱会。听Eason说，演唱会全数的钱会捐给四川赈灾。希望是真的，也敬佩这么多的艺人，以身作则，不遗余力做善事！

因为爱

今天看到这则新闻，我哭了。

＂一个１２岁的女孩，为了让路给同学逃生，忍痛拽断胳膊。＂

还有让我感动的，乐观的男孩，彬彬。明明很痛苦，却可以微笑地安慰别人。＂我没事了，只是头发乱了，不够帅了！。

因为伤口严重感染，必须进行双腿下段截肢手术。进行手术前，他问医生：＂我以后还能打篮球吗？＂ 医护含泪道：＂等你康复后，医院专门为你准备篮球赛。＂

我真的很想飞到四川去，尽一份绵力。眼看成龙大哥可以第一时间飞到德阳帮那些灾民，真的很羡慕他。

我相信，世间仍然有爱。坏人的存在，只是为了衬托好人的爱！

Post Clinical Exam

Finally, finished the clinical exam of Paeds posting. Burden half relived..haha.. But still got many things to bother, CFCS meeting tomorrow(haven't started to do the slides), SAQ on Friday (haven't finished studying).... lots and lots...

I got hydrocephalus for my exam... Actually I already knew the case in the wards earlier because I've joined the previous evening ward rounds. Most of the clinical exam I went through, actually I already know about the case and diagnosis, except for ortho and psy clincial exam last time in Sem 7. Coz I always go and spy the cases the day before. But I think I have to abort this habit, because this is not allowed during Sem10 long case exam.

I didn't really do quite well for this exam, but the lecturer said I did ok. Don't really expect high grades as he usually gives standard grade, which is B-.

Don't really have mood to study for SAQ also.Heard previous groiup said that it is useless to study.Those you have studied, they won't come out. And they'll ask those things that you kinda ignore... No point studying too hard at this last minute...hahaha

Random

Nothing much, just sitting in the library, wandering around, doing PBLs...

Felt that I should update my post since my last post was long time ago. Currently in Paeds posting, it's 3rd week now, but I still blur throughtout the posting. Next week will be having clinical exam and SAQ.. Hope I can start studying effectively from now.

Already staying in S'ban for 2 weekends, which is 3 weeks since the starting of Paeds posting. Looking forward to go back to PJ this weekend, but next week exam won't allow me to be too slack at home..

Waiting for a talk from Dr. Ling at 4.30pm. It's about character building, which I think it benefits me someway. Maybe I'll post something which I learn from the talk someday...

After exam will be having a week of break. Hope that I could get to study my emergency medicine (which I didn't study during the posting) and finish my CFCS report...