说人坏话篇 ~ 哈哈

之前对这个人，并没有什么感觉。除了觉得跟他不是很投机、还有觉得他有时蛮有风度之外，就没有任何感觉了。可是今天，真正跟他接触后，我觉得对他有些反感。

第一，他就是那种我讲的，受英文教育的人。他是那种真的完全不讲华语，不会读、不会看、只会听明白少少的。听说他假期去学讲中文，我还蛮欣赏他的。结果，我发现到他学中文是另有目的的。话说，当我们在说几句中文时，他就一直问我们这是什么意思、那是什么意思。我们就鼓励他多讲，那才可以进步神速。结果，他说的话，真是令我大跌眼镜。他说，他不要，因为他要让别人以为他不懂中文，所以但别人在说中文时，他可以听懂别人说什么，但别人却不知他听得懂。懂得中文，很羞耻吗？干吗明明听得明白，却要装不懂，偷听别人的对话，真是很没品！

最近大家的话题都围绕着大选，我其实对政治真得没有很了，谁打谁我都不知道。可是，因为今年选举的新闻，好像看连续剧那么精彩，所以最近我也会比较留意国内版。今天在图书馆时，我正在看着报纸，不知怎么的，他就说我政治冷感。说真的，我就是那种属于政治冷感的人，因为我觉得政治就是鬼打鬼的无聊游戏，有什么好看的？可是他也不需要指着林冠英的名字，问我知不知道他是谁，还有他是谁的儿子。这种问题，白痴都会回答啦，他最近那么出名。虽然以前我真得不知道他是谁，只是最近才懂，但也不用那么污辱我的政治常识吧！

他还笑我英文差。我知道我英文是很差啦，但也不需要笑我啊！我听不懂那教授的笑话，不是因为英文差，而是我完全没再听他讲话，还有那种低级的笑话，我还不屑听呢！我都还没笑他，身为华人，都不会中文，这才丢脸呢！

最后，最令我反感的事，他那么“大只”，竟然没有捐过血，还枉称自己是医科生。就连最基本的、不须费任何力的救人方法之一，他也不曾去做。他在翻我的钱包，看到我的捐器官卡时，还说他不可能会捐出他的器官。我了解，每个人都有自己的选择，但你也不用那么大声地说。不捐器官不是什么大不了的事，但让人看到你丑陋的性格，那么不光彩的事，真的不用那么大声地说出来。这种自私的人，全班第一又怎样？我鄙视他！

Chinese Educated

I don’t understand, what’s wrong of being Chinese educated? One of our lecturers pointed out those who are Chinese educated in the class. I not sure why he did that because I wasn’t in that group. I heard this from someone else and I think it is insulting. Is it that those who are Chinese educated are labeled that having poor English?

I was chatting happily with my friend in Chinese in the hospital area. The same lecturer walked by us and asked us, “What language are you speaking? IMU is an English speaking campus.” I was quite embarrassed at that time when he said that. However, later I thought it over again and felt that I was not violating any school rules by speaking Chinese in hospital area. Yes, I know IMU is an English speaking campus. SO WHAT? I was in hospital area, and I was only chatting with my friend without any other races with us. I understand Dr. Xavier told us that it is better to speak English when different races are around as this shows respect.

Had a conversation with my batch mates after a badminton session. All of them are Malay educated Chinese except me. They are quite regret that they as Chinese, do not know how to read and write Chinese. One of them said that she would send her child to Chinese school but then she said she doesn’t want her child to be too ‘Chinese’. Again, what’s wrong of being too ‘Chinese’?

I am proud to be a Chinese. As a Chinese, I know how to read and write in my mother tongue well. I listen to Chinese songs, read Chinese newspaper, listen to Chinese radio and watch Chinese shows. I know how to read the menu which is written in Chinese. Still, I am studying medicine using English language. I won’t say I have super duper good English, but my English is improving after I entered med school. And who said that those who are Chinese educated have poor English? Many of my friends have very good English even though they are Chinese educated.

It’s not wrong to be Chinese educated and don’t be ashamed of that. Don’t think that you are more superior if you are English educated. Chinese is the second most commonly used language in the world following English. By powering these two languages, my working opportunities are much more. In Malaysia, people who know both languages are not appreciated as there are a bunch of us here. But in China, a person who knows both languages well can earn as much as USD5000 per month by working as an auditor.

I know a lot of my friends who are not Chinese educated quite regret that not having a chance to learn Chinese. This is forgivable. But for those who think that Chinese educated are more inferior, please be ashamed of yourself! Imagine the situation that, a foreigner who is learning Chinese, asking you to teach him/her, and you told him/her, “Oh sorry, I don’t know how to read Chinese!” I hope his/her response would be, “How could it be? As a Chinese, you don’t know how to read Chinese? It is just similar that as an English, but you don’t know how to read English.” Yes, this is embarrassing. Haha!!

网络与政治

见识到网路的威力，在陈冠希淫照事件之后。不在任何人控制之下，淫照可以传遍全世界。

以前的媒介，只有报纸和电视机。但是这两大媒介受人监督及控制，只要有任何差池，要揪出造谣者，比起网路的茫茫人海中，容易多了。

这次大选中，反对党利用网路及简讯的威力来拉票。执政党则利用电视及电台来打广告。事实证明，前者的方式，还真得蛮有效的。渔夫得利的，就是电讯公司、电视台及电台了。

或许该说，这两种方式吸引的族群不一样吧！前者吸引到的会是较年轻的族群，而后者则是较年老的族群。不过我相信，不到十年，网路可以影响任何年龄的族群。

反政狂潮一直都热不起来，一直到今年，借着网路及电邮的威力，这可是我出生以来，看到最“热”的一次。

这次大选，出现许多意想不到的成绩。许多以为稳赢的议员，却意外的输掉了，而且还是输掉很多票的那种。

再次声明，我的立场永远是中立的。无论是反对党或执政党，我只会支持真正在做事的人，而不是口沫横飞，却袖手旁观的人。

政治

一直以来，对政治人物都没有什么好感。总觉得他们都是假惺惺的人，说话不算话。对于政治，一向都没有太大兴趣，也不会去留意政治新闻，只是有时候会翻翻两下。因为最近的选举活动，对于政治才比较留意，至少我知道我的区域的代表，还有几个比较出名的代表。

翻开报纸，都是选举的新闻。我真的好讨厌那些政治人物在互骂敌党，连名带姓地骂，真得很不专业。这是领导人物之为吗？这些没有风度，没有EQ的人，能带领马来西亚迈向2020年吗？从报纸上，我已经看到很多的人性丑态，已经对这些人很反感。有一个当记者的朋友，还告诉我一些内幕，我更觉得灰心。如果这些人再这样搞下去，我相信马来西亚永远都会停滞不前，在原地踏步。那时候，将会有更多人才外流的现象。

这次是我第一次投票，当然需要了解多一些。虽然有机会投票，但我认为我那微不足道的一票，不至于改变任何结果。政治太黑暗，人性的丑陋，让我真的有少少的失望。

p/s：写这篇文章，并没有针对任何人而写。当然我也相信在一群黑乌鸦里头，仍然有一些白鸽（哈，好奇怪的形容词！）。我也希望这些真的为国家鞠躬尽瘁、为人民尽心尽力的人，可以带领国家走向更好的未来。而那些花着人民纳税钱，又口水多过茶的人，真的，拜托你们，别再霸着那位子了！

死亡

人越长越大，就会有更多机会接触死亡。不知从何开始了解死亡，或许该说，到现在也不知死亡是什么东东吧！以科学角度来说，死亡是当心脏无法在跳动，或是脑细胞已经死掉。以宗教的角度来说，死亡只不过是肉体消失，但灵魂仍然存在。

记忆中，不曾有人告诉我什么是死亡。应该是上科学课的时候有学过吧！我一直尝试回想接触死亡的第一次是什么时候，可是却真的想不起来。印象中，我好像不曾问大人，什么是死亡。太婆去世时，我还很小，完全没有印象。姨婆去世时，我应该有2年级吧，可是那时却完全没感觉。还记得在姨婆的葬礼，我还跑来跑去，没有悲伤的感觉。姐姐还说走之前不要望后面，要不然会看到尸体跳起来，跟你说拜拜。过后，也有亲戚去世，是那种说熟又不是很熟，说不熟又每年新年会见一次面的那种。过后，我的中学华语老师患脑癌去世了。在医院，也常常有病人去世，但是当医生抢救时，都会关起帘子。唯一一次是在急诊室时，我有份帮忙抢救的病人在我面前断气。看到他家人哀号的时候，我就觉得少少的难过，因为那病人还年轻过我。过后我还帮忙整理他的遗体。

真正有很亲的人去世时，是去年婆婆去世的时候。当时虽然已经有心理准备，但知道消息时，依然很震惊。婆婆的逝世，我很快就恢复了，应该只有一天吧。这样说，好像有点不孝，可是我真的没有伤心太多天。上个月，患上癌症的堂姐也去世了。一听到消息时，我还在睡梦中，刚巧的是，我还梦到她。不记的是什么样的梦，可是就觉得有点‘邪’。由于是“白头人送黑头人”，所以就觉得比较伤感。虽然没有哭，但是我真的觉得有点不舍。堂姐是那种很开朗又友善的人，她的葬礼真的有很多朋友出席。堂哥说她交友满天下，她很多朋友还哭得很厉害。从她刚刚患癌症时，虽然已经是第四期，看她健康的样子，还以为有机会痊愈。直到上个月，她入院后，情况时好时坏，我心想应该没有机会痊愈了。可能因为读医科的关系，对于我来说，最重要的是去得舒服，而不是尝试延长生命而希望奇迹出现。我的看法是，过有quality的生活，而不是只有quantity的生活。

其实忽然间想写死亡，是因为我的一个六岁的堂侄。他跟他姑姑，也就是我那位刚去世的堂姐，关系很好。堂姐入院后，他爸爸，也就是我堂哥，没让他去医院探望她，是说怕他看到他姑姑的病样会有阴影。堂姐葬礼时，小堂侄也没出席。堂嫂跟他说，姑姑已经回家了。他很天真地问，姑姑回家了，是不是好了？堂嫂说，姑姑已经跟着太婆在很远的地方，在那边太婆会照顾姑姑。小堂侄似懂非懂的，不晓得他明白没。我在想，如果有一天，我的孩子问我，什么是死亡，除了这个“去了很远的地方”的理论，我还可以有什么答案？说得太深奥，又听不懂。我以前是怎样知道死亡，到现在我还想不起。

p/s: “To live with dignity （有尊严地活着）!” 是palliative care的宗旨。

坏人

前天看见有一个人扶一个盲人过马路，我觉得很窝心。他让我觉得这世界上不乏好人，他还是一个异族同胞。虽然我对异族同胞没有偏见，但因为我家人曾被异族同胞伤害，所以妈妈还是很讨厌 “那种族” 。他也让我觉得，其实 “他们” 并不是全都是坏人。

但今天，看到有一个朋友却被 “异族” 欺压，真的很令人气愤。话说，我朋友在卖二手衣。“她” 选了几件。我朋友开出一个价钱，“她” 却嫌贵。而我朋友开的价钱，我个人认为其实是很便宜的。两件上衣加两件裙，又是蛮新的，才卖RM40。我朋友就说RM30，“她” 还嫌贵。然后 “她” 就不要其中一件裙。朋友就开价RM15，两件上衣加一件裙，RM15已经很便宜咯！平均一件才五块。“她” 竟然只给十块！结果，所有人看见了，都起哄说别欺负我朋友。“她” 还可以理直气壮地认为买东西就应该减价。

我真的觉得 “她” 太过份了！事后，我跟朋友说，其实有一件我也蛮中意的。只是我知道我朋友应该会卖很便宜给我。为了让朋友赚多点，我才没跟 “她” 争。怎知 “她” 却那样来欺压我朋友。早知如此，我应该把那件衣服买回来，那样我朋友可以赚更多，因为至少我不会那样不知廉耻。不过 “她” 平时已经很嚣张了，我要抢，也抢不过 “她” 吧！

越想就越生气，实在太太太过份了！你们说是吗？

A&E Posting

Currently I am in A & E posting now. I have been looking forward to this posting since semester 8. I always think that A & E doctors look smarter as they are really handling emergency cases. (Haha… I think got a lot of influences from drama too.)

Our group is posted to on-call at night. I skipped my on-call on 1st day (I was lazy). Came on-call on Tuesday around 7pm. There was not much patients yet and we gotta do a study on triage. This study need to be done as the head of department of HTJ asked us to. It’s a study to determine the number of cases which are mistriaged. Haih… we, the student, are just been used to do a study for her.

There was no admission to the critical zone but there were a few cases in semi-critical zone. I got to perform an ECG and IM injection on patients but I haven’t got the chance to set IV line as everyone is fighting to do procedures. Some of the staff nurses and MAs are really kind to teach us doing procedure. I have set IV line on obstetric patients before, but not on normal patients. It is easier to set IV line on obstetric patients as their veins are dilated. I succeeded every time when on obstetric patients but haven’t tried on normal patients. Not many cases seen on Tuesday but we got a lot of chance to do procedure.

On Wednesday, I went around 9pm. It was a boring day, as there were lesser cases seen than on Tuesday. Did ECG again but still haven’t got the chance to set drip. There was 1 case of status epilepticus. Left around 12am.

Thursday, a very busy day. We reached around 9pm too. There were a few cases in red zone (critical zone). A 17 year-old man had an MVA, involving motorbike vs motorbike. His condition was quite serious. And finally we got the chance to help out the doctors. We help to bag the patient. The patient stopped breathing and has no more pulse. It was really acute. We get to helped out to resuscitate the patient. This is the 1st time I am doing CPR on a real patient. I actually did wrongly and the doctor stopped me. All of us took turn to do CPR and after 15 minutes, we failed to resuscitate the patient. It was really sad when we need to stop resuscitating and the patient’s family was crying out there. After that, we also helped the staff nurse to clean up the patient. This was a memorable experience and I think I never forget it. Although I failed at my 1st time, I really hope that in the future, I get to save patient whenever I need to do a CPR.

Actually during the 1st two days of the posting, I was quite disappointed as the doctors in A & E look quite slack. I can’t really feel the tense atmosphere of A & E. But after the incident, I really can see that the doctors are doing things. It is very acute when there is an emergency case. At least there is no ignorance… I am really interested in emergency medicine, maybe I’ll take up emergency medicine as my specialty.

爱情果

第一次吃爱情果。
之前完全没吃过、也没看过爱情果。
味道如何？
有点酸酸的、又有点涩涩的、也有点甜甜的。
吃完之后，又有点回甘的感觉。
很奇妙的一种感觉。
哈哈，难道这就是所谓的爱情的感觉吗？
所以这种水果才叫爱情果？
说实在的，并没有很喜欢它的味道，或许还不习惯吧！
嗯，或许潜意识中，我也没准备迎接爱情的来临吧！
哈，还是想太多了吧？
不知大家有没有吃过爱情果？吃了之后，又有什么感觉呢？

No more Pizza Hut!!

This is not the first time. I always have bad experience with Pizza Hut's service. Maybe next time I should have boycott them. No offend to any Pizza Hut's lover, I am just telling my own feeling about them.

My first bad experience was in Pizza Hut in Sri Petaling. We ordered our food but it took more than an hour to serve our food. Those who came later than us already had their food served but not us. We complaint and threatened to see their manager. As a compensation, they gave us just a bowl of salad. We waited until we don't feel like eating anymore.

Another time was in Jusco Pizza Hut in Seremban 2. We went in and wanna ordered our food, but all our orders were not available. Fine, so we left without having our meal there. That wasn't that bad, still.

Recently again, in Seremban Parade's Pizza Hut, it was time for 'buka puasa', so it was quite crowded. We wanted to order our food, a few times, we tried to call the waiter, but they just signaled us to wait. We was hungry, and of course, with an empty stomach, we got angry easily. One of the waitress asked us to wait as they were preparing for 'buka puasa'. We waited for half an hour, and finally we gave up and we left Pizza Hut and went to McDonald. I don't mind waiting but with an empty stomach, and looking at those Malays were served except us, I was so angry. After that, in McDonald, we kept talking bad about Pizza Hut... Haha..

Finally, I had one meal in Pizza Hut after all the bad experiences, still it could not change my bad impression on Pizza Hut. It took ages for them to serve the cheese powder. I still think that it has the worst fastfood service in Malaysia... Friends...no more Pizza Hut if going out with me, k?

Long-waited Post

Sorry for the long-waited post. It's been such a long time since my last post... Again, same excuses... no internet connection, no time, and never-ending exams...haha. Finally I finished Semester 7, and I am one step nearer to become a doctor. Actually I am kinda afraid of thinking about that. Why? I think I enjoy study life more than working, I always think that working life is tougher... Nevermind, "既来之，则安之", before that I also thought that I don't like clinical school life, but I've already gone through 1 year of clinical school.

I've finished Sem 7 exam and I passed. Don't know about the grade yet. AAD said they will send the grades to our parents. Not sure if they are reliable, because they never even send the posting results to my parents. I really hope that I could get good grades for my SAQ and OSPE, of course for OSCE too, if possible, coz I dun think I did well enough for my OSCE. Anyway, I passed and I am gonna be in Sem 8 soon, a honeymoon semester, I suppose, but I don't wanna waste this half year. I was so regret as I've wasted my Sem 6 and Sem 7. I need to be more hardworking!!

After the exam, I went to Malacca with Jin-Yu and Baxter. An unplanned trip actually, to meet Yi Ning who went to Malacca with her mom. Tasted Malacca local food such as chicken rice ball and 'satay celu'. Actually this was my first time eating chicken rice ball but it wasn't as delicious as what I expected. I prefer chicken rice still..haha. 'Satay celup' too, was the first time I trying this, for those who doesn't know, just for information, it's actually something like steamboat but with the soup changed to satay sauce. Very nice!! Highly recommended for those who never try before. We kept eating throughout the whole trip... I think I've gained weight after that trip... Luckily we also did a lot of walking too... to burn some calories gained!!


Satay Celup Yummy Yummy!!



This photo was taken by me.... Nice leh? =P



Malacca Stadhuys



Kota A Famosa




Heberdeen Street Heritage House
One of the most memorable experiences during the whole trip to Malacca. We went to this heritage house because it was free entrance. There's this Mr. Colin explaining the Dutch culture and their buildings to us. At least now I know why all the Dutch houses are narrow but long. Wanna make a guess? Those pictures which were taken in the heritage house are not for published, so I just posted this pic, showing the Dutch toilet... haha... (Oh ya, not sure if I get the street name right?)


And 2 days after I came back from Malacca, I went to Malacca again with my parents. This trip was planned earlier before my exam. So now I am quite familiar with Malacca...haha...call me if you need a tour guide in Malacca. Remember to pay me also...haha... Not much of walking if compare to the trip earlier coz my father drove. However my arm got sun burnt and I could still see the marks on my arms and legs now.



Hang Li Po's Well in Bukit Cina


Trishaws (RM40 per hour!!)


I was watching dramas and movies during these holidays. Never get to study at all. Finally I finished 'The Brink of Law' (突圍行動). I was watching it in Seremban as my owner has the dvds but never manage to finish it before she returned the dvds. I wanna watch this because it was acted by Steven Ma and Bernice... I really like both of them. They have another new drama '舞动全城' showing in Astro on demand soon but I won't have the chance to watch. Next target --> 舞动全城!!!




P/S: Has taken more photos than these, but I can't upload all because it took time to upload photos.. It's so late now, and I wanna sleep..ZZzzz...
p/s: Happy Merdeka Day!!!